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I don't feel like doing anything else as of right now, but sitting down and writing... yet somehow, I'm unsure I can really put into words everything I've been feeling as of late.
The past few days have been an insane rush of.. well, just about everything. On the emotional spectrum, I guaruntee I have felt it all. Right now I'm in a mellow state of mind, just trying desperately to recooperate from this emotional overload...
I don't really know where to begin. The ups and downs of the past week or so have put me into such a daze, it's hard for me to really pinpoint any one thing that could have been the trigger. I'm so unable to decipher what is right and what is wrong, what makes sense and what is completely illogical. Whenever I think I'm right on track again, something happens to throw it off, and I'm back to where I started. My judgement has obviously been ridiculously skewed, and I don't know what to do to set it right again.
I'm waiting anxiously for the day when I can pack up and leave, when I don't have to hang around the same places or see the same faces anymore. My life is screaming for a new beginning, a brand new direction where I can leave Anaheim Hills and everything that embodies it behind. I'm at the point where my life has reached a rut, where I've done all I can do still without results to show for it.
I think for the sake of my own sanity, I need September to arrive ASAP...
The past few days have been an insane rush of.. well, just about everything. On the emotional spectrum, I guaruntee I have felt it all. Right now I'm in a mellow state of mind, just trying desperately to recooperate from this emotional overload...
I don't really know where to begin. The ups and downs of the past week or so have put me into such a daze, it's hard for me to really pinpoint any one thing that could have been the trigger. I'm so unable to decipher what is right and what is wrong, what makes sense and what is completely illogical. Whenever I think I'm right on track again, something happens to throw it off, and I'm back to where I started. My judgement has obviously been ridiculously skewed, and I don't know what to do to set it right again.
I'm waiting anxiously for the day when I can pack up and leave, when I don't have to hang around the same places or see the same faces anymore. My life is screaming for a new beginning, a brand new direction where I can leave Anaheim Hills and everything that embodies it behind. I'm at the point where my life has reached a rut, where I've done all I can do still without results to show for it.
I think for the sake of my own sanity, I need September to arrive ASAP...