it's been a long time
Not much has changed in my life since the last time I wrote.
Sarah and I are still not friends, which to me is a really great things. I think it's been about....3 months now. Maybe it makes me a horrible person for saying this, but I don't miss it at all. The only thing I miss is getting to hang out with everyone instead of making my friends split up their time between the two of us like they are our children. I never wanted it to be like that, but consequences come with the decisions we make in live, and I've accepted it.
It does mean less time for me with Christina, which is never a good thing, but I love her to death and nothing will ever come between us anyways, I know that for a fact.
Still ready to move to Chicago. It's about 10 months away, a long time, but in retrospect, not so long. It's weird, because I know we're moving, no matter what. In the past, it's always been one of those "dreams" that we try to turn into reality, but this time, it feels different. Real. Like it's actually going to happen. And that excites me. I mean, what is she waiting around here for? She's not going to school because she's waiting for us to move, but who knows when the hell I'm ever going to graduate, and if it's not soon, she's going to leave without me, and I can't deal with that. And I'm just taking classes to take classes, and they all suck because they apply to teaching in Florida public schools, so it's very irrelevant to me anyways.
As much as I AM excited to get out of this place, these next ten months are going to be a little bit sad. I've been thinking about it, and this is the last Halloween I'm going to have down here. The last time I live here for Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, Spring Break, Easter....it's all the last things that get to me. Because I'm not leaving to get away from the people I've become friends with, I'm leaving because I've been in this place my entire life. Lived in the same TOWN my entire life. And I need a change. Florida is not the place for me, plain and simple.
There are things I WILL NOT miss, though. Yesterday at work made that evident. Things such as HAITIANS!!!!!!!!! I mean, never gonna miss them. And stupid black people that wave to me while at work because they think it's funny,which it isn't. Strange men yelling at their water bottles because THEY spilled it on the ground and getting kicked out of the mall because they were biting their arm and rocking back and forth and slamming their head on the table. The "oh-so-scene" kids that are so prevalent down here, esp the ones that are scene because it's popular and they like the clothes, not because they are really into the music. ugh.
That's life right now.
Sarah and I are still not friends, which to me is a really great things. I think it's been about....3 months now. Maybe it makes me a horrible person for saying this, but I don't miss it at all. The only thing I miss is getting to hang out with everyone instead of making my friends split up their time between the two of us like they are our children. I never wanted it to be like that, but consequences come with the decisions we make in live, and I've accepted it.
It does mean less time for me with Christina, which is never a good thing, but I love her to death and nothing will ever come between us anyways, I know that for a fact.
Still ready to move to Chicago. It's about 10 months away, a long time, but in retrospect, not so long. It's weird, because I know we're moving, no matter what. In the past, it's always been one of those "dreams" that we try to turn into reality, but this time, it feels different. Real. Like it's actually going to happen. And that excites me. I mean, what is she waiting around here for? She's not going to school because she's waiting for us to move, but who knows when the hell I'm ever going to graduate, and if it's not soon, she's going to leave without me, and I can't deal with that. And I'm just taking classes to take classes, and they all suck because they apply to teaching in Florida public schools, so it's very irrelevant to me anyways.
As much as I AM excited to get out of this place, these next ten months are going to be a little bit sad. I've been thinking about it, and this is the last Halloween I'm going to have down here. The last time I live here for Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years, Spring Break, Easter....it's all the last things that get to me. Because I'm not leaving to get away from the people I've become friends with, I'm leaving because I've been in this place my entire life. Lived in the same TOWN my entire life. And I need a change. Florida is not the place for me, plain and simple.
There are things I WILL NOT miss, though. Yesterday at work made that evident. Things such as HAITIANS!!!!!!!!! I mean, never gonna miss them. And stupid black people that wave to me while at work because they think it's funny,which it isn't. Strange men yelling at their water bottles because THEY spilled it on the ground and getting kicked out of the mall because they were biting their arm and rocking back and forth and slamming their head on the table. The "oh-so-scene" kids that are so prevalent down here, esp the ones that are scene because it's popular and they like the clothes, not because they are really into the music. ugh.
That's life right now.