UGH!
I would just really love to know how the hell everything is always my damn fault and I get blamed for everything that goes wrong in this kids life.... I mean not everything can be blamed on me, but somehow it always is... and I have been trying so hard to not get annoyed about things because I don't want to be the "bitchy girl"... and I haven't picked fights like I used too.... but come on, gimme a damn break!!! and it's all so stupid... he couldn't play basketball... omg, the world is coming to a fricken end.... I dunno, call me crazy, I actually thought maybe he did change, and it would work this time... but I'm starting to doubt that... I've been trying so hard to make him happy and not be the selfish needy clingy girlfriend I used to be... and at first I thought I wasn't being like that because technically I'm not his girlfriend... but now I realize it's just because I know I don't need to be like that when it comes to him... he isn't going to hurt me like that... I don't need to like stalk him to make sure he's around... and I know he's always going to be there if I need him.... and now he's become the selfish jerk... I don't even know... and what the hell is the reason to ask me stupid questions like if I really want to be with him??? obviously I want it to work if I'm still here... ugh it's so frustrating... I'm done for now... bye