Being in Love is Hard (3/3)
Title: I Don't Want to Forget but it's Too Hard to Remember
Pairing: Jay Park / Jessica
Summary: Goodbye's are always hard because no one wants to say them.
Day 50
I wake up in the middle of the night. My head feels like a ton of bricks and my arms can hardly move. But I remember. I look at the bracelet on my hand. The one with the engraving and I remember everything.
Day 10
“Where are you taking me?” I hold onto Jay tightly. We’re riding on his motorcycle down the highway. He looks back at me but doesn’t say anything.
We stop in the middle of the highway and when I get off of his bike, my feet feel like jelly because we’d been driving for almost an hour and I’m freezing. He puts his jacket around me and takes my hand.
“Remember how you used to say you wanted to live in a castle?” He leads me through the trees and I see a light up ahead.
I laugh as I remember us as toddlers. I would be the princess and he would be my manservant. And on rare occasions, I allowed him to be my prince.
The light is brighter and I can see it illuminating a turret.
“Is it really a castle?” I exclaim. I run to where the light is and see a balcony, complete with turrets and a mote. It’s a castle. There’s a grand staircase that leads up to the castle doors and I look at the building structure in awe.
“They’re filming a movie here. I thought I would take you here since-“
“Since I’m your princess?” I fling my arms around him and then run up the prop staircase. Of course it wasn’t a real castle and the backdrop was cardboard, but it was the closest thing to a real castle for me.
I run up the staircase and he looks up at me. He points a finger in the air and an overhead light goes on. It’s on me and the staircase. Like a spotlight with everything else in darkness.
I start laughing, “What is this?”
He’s slowly walking up the staircase and I freeze.
He takes something out of his pocket and it’s a small box. He’s a few steps below me now so he’s just a little below eye level.
“I want to marry you.”
“Are you proposing to me?” I’m in shock but at the same time, I’m thrilled.
He takes out the box and it’s a bracelet, “I don’t have a ring. I don’t have much….but I have this.”
I look at it and before he can put it on me I take it from him.
“You and Me. Forever.” I read it aloud.
“Because I will stay with you forever,” he puts the bracelet on my wrist.
“And I will stay with you forever,” I say silently before kissing him on the lips.
“This is it,” I say as the memory comes back to me. I want to call him but at the same time I know that this will only hurt him more, “I’m sorry I couldn’t keep our promise.” I say silently.
Day 53
Jay had to wipe away his tears as he read the letter with her handwriting on it.
Jay, my best friend, my boyfriend, the love of my life,
I’m sorry. I’m so sorry for all that you’ve been through these last few months. I wanted to remember. I tried to keep my promise to you. I wanted to remember you, but it was so hard, Jay. Why are you so perfect? Why couldn’t I see this when we were growing up? We could’ve had so much time together. But the times we did have together I would never change for the world. Not even for a few more minutes of life. I know it was hard for you to see me forget you, but you still came every day. You still stayed by my side. But I remember now, Jay. I’m writing this letter because I did remember. I came back to you. And I want to call you so badly right now. But by the time that you come, I probably won’t be here. I wanted to marry you. I wanted to grow old with you and have kids.
Jay. I will miss you so much. I love you so much. You and Me. Forever.
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Pairing: Jay Park / Jessica
Summary: Goodbye's are always hard because no one wants to say them.
Day 50
I wake up in the middle of the night. My head feels like a ton of bricks and my arms can hardly move. But I remember. I look at the bracelet on my hand. The one with the engraving and I remember everything.
Day 10
“Where are you taking me?” I hold onto Jay tightly. We’re riding on his motorcycle down the highway. He looks back at me but doesn’t say anything.
We stop in the middle of the highway and when I get off of his bike, my feet feel like jelly because we’d been driving for almost an hour and I’m freezing. He puts his jacket around me and takes my hand.
“Remember how you used to say you wanted to live in a castle?” He leads me through the trees and I see a light up ahead.
I laugh as I remember us as toddlers. I would be the princess and he would be my manservant. And on rare occasions, I allowed him to be my prince.
The light is brighter and I can see it illuminating a turret.
“Is it really a castle?” I exclaim. I run to where the light is and see a balcony, complete with turrets and a mote. It’s a castle. There’s a grand staircase that leads up to the castle doors and I look at the building structure in awe.
“They’re filming a movie here. I thought I would take you here since-“
“Since I’m your princess?” I fling my arms around him and then run up the prop staircase. Of course it wasn’t a real castle and the backdrop was cardboard, but it was the closest thing to a real castle for me.
I run up the staircase and he looks up at me. He points a finger in the air and an overhead light goes on. It’s on me and the staircase. Like a spotlight with everything else in darkness.
I start laughing, “What is this?”
He’s slowly walking up the staircase and I freeze.
He takes something out of his pocket and it’s a small box. He’s a few steps below me now so he’s just a little below eye level.
“I want to marry you.”
“Are you proposing to me?” I’m in shock but at the same time, I’m thrilled.
He takes out the box and it’s a bracelet, “I don’t have a ring. I don’t have much….but I have this.”
I look at it and before he can put it on me I take it from him.
“You and Me. Forever.” I read it aloud.
“Because I will stay with you forever,” he puts the bracelet on my wrist.
“And I will stay with you forever,” I say silently before kissing him on the lips.
“This is it,” I say as the memory comes back to me. I want to call him but at the same time I know that this will only hurt him more, “I’m sorry I couldn’t keep our promise.” I say silently.
Day 53
Jay had to wipe away his tears as he read the letter with her handwriting on it.
Jay, my best friend, my boyfriend, the love of my life,
I’m sorry. I’m so sorry for all that you’ve been through these last few months. I wanted to remember. I tried to keep my promise to you. I wanted to remember you, but it was so hard, Jay. Why are you so perfect? Why couldn’t I see this when we were growing up? We could’ve had so much time together. But the times we did have together I would never change for the world. Not even for a few more minutes of life. I know it was hard for you to see me forget you, but you still came every day. You still stayed by my side. But I remember now, Jay. I’m writing this letter because I did remember. I came back to you. And I want to call you so badly right now. But by the time that you come, I probably won’t be here. I wanted to marry you. I wanted to grow old with you and have kids.
Jay. I will miss you so much. I love you so much. You and Me. Forever.
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