oh new years....

Jan 01, 2006 04:09

well... it's another year... and another one to come. And yet, as im here, at the party still (yes, i realize it's 4am..) I'm suddenly morose. I dont know if it's me crashing from a ridiculous caffeine high... and running around like a sober idiot... or if it's from the emergence of the beautiful butterfly.. but suddenly i realize that this is one of the last few times that we will all be together... and it makes me wanna cry. It seems like everytime that I find an amazing group of friends, I end up losing them to the world. I wish in a very random way that just for once life could remain static. For an instance. It would be nice. I know that if u wish for perfect moments, ull end up missing the memories and all their perfection of the moment. but i cant help feeling abandoned.

im excited for grad school... but im sad to leave... and im scared for what's ahead. I feel so alone. I am alone.
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