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1) oh november is great. im 23 in 15 days :)and yet, im still convinced i havent dont anything remotely laudable in my lifetime. Some people when they are 23 have their own business!! Or have their own album!! What am i doing? Playing half assed songs on my guitar humming the lyrics to myself bc im too afraid someone will hear my wretched voice.
I will have a Yuengling keg.
2) There has been swift intervention. I have (by the will of others as well) concluded that I will limit my alcohol consumption to no more than two drinks a night, for a total of two nights a week. 4 drinks a week? That is like a drip of warm beer on my tongue compared to the 8-12 drinks im used to PER NIGHT.
One really bad night was the 4 beers and 3 glasses of wine I had before we finished dinner, but after we went out, 2 shots, 2 appletinis and another 2 beers were consumed. That was bad. Two nights ago though, I got away with 6 beers in an hour on my friends couch. Nip Tuck was never so great. Alas, I am not proud. I've realized that because of my excessive consumption, I am deteriorating physically and mentally (although it saves me emotionally) and i realize why i can no longer sleep on my side.
3) To those who now know, I've never been happier. That was probably why I have long been so depressed. I must also note that I am allowed to use that expression freely since i have actually been victim to its wrath. Oh how it gripped me so. The dark dark clouds.
I keep forgetting that I havent told everyone so i have to be careful and remember to continue surpressing anything that might give it away. Apparently, I still suck at that. Haha oops. Its so liberating though.... grr..
4) Still workin on those apps. I dont like being here but i still have to be. Good thing its friday tomorrow.
I will have a Yuengling keg.
2) There has been swift intervention. I have (by the will of others as well) concluded that I will limit my alcohol consumption to no more than two drinks a night, for a total of two nights a week. 4 drinks a week? That is like a drip of warm beer on my tongue compared to the 8-12 drinks im used to PER NIGHT.
One really bad night was the 4 beers and 3 glasses of wine I had before we finished dinner, but after we went out, 2 shots, 2 appletinis and another 2 beers were consumed. That was bad. Two nights ago though, I got away with 6 beers in an hour on my friends couch. Nip Tuck was never so great. Alas, I am not proud. I've realized that because of my excessive consumption, I am deteriorating physically and mentally (although it saves me emotionally) and i realize why i can no longer sleep on my side.
3) To those who now know, I've never been happier. That was probably why I have long been so depressed. I must also note that I am allowed to use that expression freely since i have actually been victim to its wrath. Oh how it gripped me so. The dark dark clouds.
I keep forgetting that I havent told everyone so i have to be careful and remember to continue surpressing anything that might give it away. Apparently, I still suck at that. Haha oops. Its so liberating though.... grr..
4) Still workin on those apps. I dont like being here but i still have to be. Good thing its friday tomorrow.