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standing so close....
it kills me (to breathe you in)
Things seem so calm.
But sometimes death is still.
&quiet.
I find myself wanting to sink into it.
Sink away and remain.
still.
Other times I want to scream
I want to throw things
I want to dance until I collapse
I want to laugh until I've cried all my tears.
I want to gaze into eyes and remember how to love.
Remember how to make people happy.
(I dont want to destroy anymore. Or maybe I want to destroy everything... I'm just not sure how to stop.)
I'm too needy lately. Too whiney and depressed.
I want to drive through a night full of stars, then watch the sun slowly come up over the mountains.
Throw myself into make believe.
(everything feels way too real lately. How do I snap out of it?)
Anyone wanna take a nap with me??