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She told me a couple of weeks ago that she has a right to be selfish because she is finally happy. I have come to realize...being happy means you arn't going to be a selfish bitch... kind of an ironic statement isn't it?
But this is how things happen. I mean they are an on going cycle and from now until the end of the world I think it will always be this way. She will always make these unrational choices and I will always be the one who will tell her to rethink it and she will tell me it is her own damn life and blah blah blah. I wonder how many times I will pick up her peices while I still pick mine up.
For the record just because your going "away" to school and I have made the choice to stay here, doesn't make you better than me. It means I realize that it's a waste of money.
Anyway.. I think I am content. Which isn't exactly happy but it does mean that I am fine with just going with the flow until I figure a few things out. One of those things being my relastionship status. I think our safe bet is just say "single" is what I am and probobly will always be. I can't really picture being with someone for more than like 6 to 9 months without getting completely bored out of my skull and needing a change of pace. That sounds completely rude and icky but it's true... Staying with one person for the rest of my life means seeing this person face to face every day until I get too old and I can't remember them... or until death... still both are very long times for me not to get bored out of my skull. This is what I mean by being content. every girl I practically know complains daily about being single.. Really it's not that bad. I still hang out with my friends, I still laugh, have fun, flirt, do normal girl things... I can't really imagine giving it up...
Before I get too far into this rant let me just remind you all that I don't not way to be in a relastionship I'm just very content not being in one...make sense? I wouldn't mind it. I wouldn't turn one down but I'm not going to whine if I'm not in one...
anyway.. I'm going to go running and gett coffee before things start to happen. Toodles...
But this is how things happen. I mean they are an on going cycle and from now until the end of the world I think it will always be this way. She will always make these unrational choices and I will always be the one who will tell her to rethink it and she will tell me it is her own damn life and blah blah blah. I wonder how many times I will pick up her peices while I still pick mine up.
For the record just because your going "away" to school and I have made the choice to stay here, doesn't make you better than me. It means I realize that it's a waste of money.
Anyway.. I think I am content. Which isn't exactly happy but it does mean that I am fine with just going with the flow until I figure a few things out. One of those things being my relastionship status. I think our safe bet is just say "single" is what I am and probobly will always be. I can't really picture being with someone for more than like 6 to 9 months without getting completely bored out of my skull and needing a change of pace. That sounds completely rude and icky but it's true... Staying with one person for the rest of my life means seeing this person face to face every day until I get too old and I can't remember them... or until death... still both are very long times for me not to get bored out of my skull. This is what I mean by being content. every girl I practically know complains daily about being single.. Really it's not that bad. I still hang out with my friends, I still laugh, have fun, flirt, do normal girl things... I can't really imagine giving it up...
Before I get too far into this rant let me just remind you all that I don't not way to be in a relastionship I'm just very content not being in one...make sense? I wouldn't mind it. I wouldn't turn one down but I'm not going to whine if I'm not in one...
anyway.. I'm going to go running and gett coffee before things start to happen. Toodles...