And now the upside of everything
Well Matt is still thinking of moving to NYC, but he knows that he can't reasonably get that done by August.
My past 36 hours was full of ex's
1) I went down to the qdoba that Frank works at in order to meet Austin (that's two ex's). Not to be evil to Frank, he knows who Austin is so it's not that big of a deal. Well I left Frank's jaw on the floor...to be honest Chile made me pretty hot.
2) Austin was also apparently pretty impressed by my physical appearence, because he took me to his new condo, got me drunk, and made out with me. (It isn't that he made out with a drunk Sarah, it's that he's calling me all the time now and being...sweet...) But yeah...I kissed Austin for the first time since the ninth grade....how crazy. He's pretty much turned into my idealistic boyfriend as of lately, and I might even end up liking him if it weren't for point number three...
3) So part of the whole kissing Austin crusade was in order to drain myself of some of the sexual frustration that I had built up while in Chile so as not to attack Matt with my sexuality. I went to hang out with Matt the morning after the Austin incident, as was the plan. The first thing Matt says to me when I get to his house is that he's not going to NYC as early as he thought. I explained to him that I had decided to accept that decision and that I support anything that he feels he needs to do to make him happy. AARRRGHHHH and then he came up and kissed me, saying that I make him happy. It was pretty fantastic, but also proves that I have ZERO self-control, because I didn't resist him at all. We spent all morning cuddling in bed, making out, and talking about "us." AND that spark that I was frustrated about disappearing..you know, the big reason that I broke up with him...that spark is back. It's back and it's bigger than before. I mean to say that his touch has never turned me on more.
So all day yesterday we were together, I was on cloud nine. I felt like I was dreaming all day, it was amazing. No sex even! (Well I'm on the rag so it's a little impossible anyway). We decided to not put any titles on our situation as of now and to just take it slow and see how the new living situation works out for us (He lives in South Denver and I live in way North Denver).
Anyway...I am pretty ecstatic about my life right now. I am back to being in love with the person I am in love with. I LOVE HIM OH SO MUCH! I want to run through the streets and shout and sing it to the world.
But I won't.
My past 36 hours was full of ex's
1) I went down to the qdoba that Frank works at in order to meet Austin (that's two ex's). Not to be evil to Frank, he knows who Austin is so it's not that big of a deal. Well I left Frank's jaw on the floor...to be honest Chile made me pretty hot.
2) Austin was also apparently pretty impressed by my physical appearence, because he took me to his new condo, got me drunk, and made out with me. (It isn't that he made out with a drunk Sarah, it's that he's calling me all the time now and being...sweet...) But yeah...I kissed Austin for the first time since the ninth grade....how crazy. He's pretty much turned into my idealistic boyfriend as of lately, and I might even end up liking him if it weren't for point number three...
3) So part of the whole kissing Austin crusade was in order to drain myself of some of the sexual frustration that I had built up while in Chile so as not to attack Matt with my sexuality. I went to hang out with Matt the morning after the Austin incident, as was the plan. The first thing Matt says to me when I get to his house is that he's not going to NYC as early as he thought. I explained to him that I had decided to accept that decision and that I support anything that he feels he needs to do to make him happy. AARRRGHHHH and then he came up and kissed me, saying that I make him happy. It was pretty fantastic, but also proves that I have ZERO self-control, because I didn't resist him at all. We spent all morning cuddling in bed, making out, and talking about "us." AND that spark that I was frustrated about disappearing..you know, the big reason that I broke up with him...that spark is back. It's back and it's bigger than before. I mean to say that his touch has never turned me on more.
So all day yesterday we were together, I was on cloud nine. I felt like I was dreaming all day, it was amazing. No sex even! (Well I'm on the rag so it's a little impossible anyway). We decided to not put any titles on our situation as of now and to just take it slow and see how the new living situation works out for us (He lives in South Denver and I live in way North Denver).
Anyway...I am pretty ecstatic about my life right now. I am back to being in love with the person I am in love with. I LOVE HIM OH SO MUCH! I want to run through the streets and shout and sing it to the world.
But I won't.