Trying...
The main reasons I am posting right now are because I told the most reliable guy in my life I would (yes, that's you Tony) and because I am at a loss with my situation.
Things were going great with David and myself, but as of late things have gone downhill. It's not the same shit as with Daniel, but it's similar in some fashion. I have been finding some "unpleasant" things on the computer and have confronted him about it. He told me he'd stop and correct himself but I found more tonight. I cried for a while as I sat here with my roommate, Charleyann, and looked through adoptive parent profiles for her unborn child. It was depressing to say the least.
I was going to write another poem tonight but Char scolded me for not sleeping. I told her I wasn't going to because I didn't want to. I may just go in and lay there quietly and ponder my relationship as it stands. I told David he'd wake up beside me but I'm still unsure if that will be true.
--In other news--
Freddy came home from being deployed for this damned war. I'm glad he's back safe and was going to see him home but found out he arrived an hour early. David is a bit jealous over me wanting to see someone I haven't spoken to for nearly 4 years. I don't see why honestly, other than his guilt for what he's done.
Our other friend, David, (yes, another...I'm creating a Dave clan) has been staying over a lot lately. He would much rather come out into town and visit us at the pool hall or here at home than stay in his house. His back is killing him but still he wears himself out to the point he stays.
I placed second in the 9-ball tournament tonight. It came down to me and Chris Barnes. We both knew one of us was going to win, so we just played it out in a fun style. We picked on each other, made each other laugh with our shots...generally, it was like any other time, not the final sets of the tourney. I mopped the floor with his ass the first set of 3 games, but he came back the second set to take the win. Hey, $25 bucks isn't bad.
More to come a bit later, possibly a poem if I get around to writing one.
Things were going great with David and myself, but as of late things have gone downhill. It's not the same shit as with Daniel, but it's similar in some fashion. I have been finding some "unpleasant" things on the computer and have confronted him about it. He told me he'd stop and correct himself but I found more tonight. I cried for a while as I sat here with my roommate, Charleyann, and looked through adoptive parent profiles for her unborn child. It was depressing to say the least.
I was going to write another poem tonight but Char scolded me for not sleeping. I told her I wasn't going to because I didn't want to. I may just go in and lay there quietly and ponder my relationship as it stands. I told David he'd wake up beside me but I'm still unsure if that will be true.
--In other news--
Freddy came home from being deployed for this damned war. I'm glad he's back safe and was going to see him home but found out he arrived an hour early. David is a bit jealous over me wanting to see someone I haven't spoken to for nearly 4 years. I don't see why honestly, other than his guilt for what he's done.
Our other friend, David, (yes, another...I'm creating a Dave clan) has been staying over a lot lately. He would much rather come out into town and visit us at the pool hall or here at home than stay in his house. His back is killing him but still he wears himself out to the point he stays.
I placed second in the 9-ball tournament tonight. It came down to me and Chris Barnes. We both knew one of us was going to win, so we just played it out in a fun style. We picked on each other, made each other laugh with our shots...generally, it was like any other time, not the final sets of the tourney. I mopped the floor with his ass the first set of 3 games, but he came back the second set to take the win. Hey, $25 bucks isn't bad.
More to come a bit later, possibly a poem if I get around to writing one.