Never like I hope.
Pro's and Con's to this week...
Pro's:
Got to go to the lake.
Got my juggling balls and bought a skate board
Had lunch with Bridget and Mike
Got some running in
Have some patterns coming along decently
Hopefully get to see The Amazing Spiderman with Stephen and Julie sat.
Con's:
Wanted to juggle every day this week...did so but got hours less of practice time in then I wanted
Looked forward to my weekend off..now work 5 days this week and only one day off this weekend
So no two days off until Tuesday
Wanted to get some pictures and some footage of juggling...none of it has turned out well yet.
Miss Nathan a Lot, don't know when I'll hear from him next and don't know when I'll see him next...
Have had a couple really rough days at work, and my best friend who always makes me feel better and vent to isn't here.
Sunburned and sore
Still a lot I wanted to do and hardly any time to do it
It's rained the past 2 days I've wanted to do things outside.
Potential Pro or Con....the week isn't over.
I hope Nathans week is at least going really well, he needs this.
Was in a great mood at the beginning of the week and it has deteriorated progressively since then. I hope I can build it back up... I guess whats frustrated me today is how sore I've been and work was awful today, like nothing good to say about it. I came home so tired I could barely move so I passed out on the futon...finally got myself up and going, had dinner and helped my mom...by then its like 7:30...I wanted to start practicing around 4...got a couple hours in, until it got hard to see, but even though there was improvement I was just really frustrated with it...I just get angry at myself when I don't feel like im progressing fast enough and I feel like a failure as a decent juggler which not only makes me feel like im failing myself and my own goals but Nathan's as well. I know im being dramatic, there are some things I can do just fine...I still just am not what I want to be..so back at it again tomorrow as much as possible, of course assuming I don't get stuck at work all day and get caught up in what everyone else wants me to go...I guess what makes all this more frustrating is that I had high expectations for this week and my productivity..and I've had some but not nearly what I wanted..at least I've made sure to juggle every day.
Ooookay, going to stop complaining and head to bed..
Tomorrow is a new day, Im not looking forward to it at all but I really ought to drop the attitude and lighten up...who knows what will happen and maybe some good will come out of it...ha now lets see if I can convince myself to believe it...I miss Nathan...I miss his voice...it soothes me... :'(
Pro's:
Got to go to the lake.
Got my juggling balls and bought a skate board
Had lunch with Bridget and Mike
Got some running in
Have some patterns coming along decently
Hopefully get to see The Amazing Spiderman with Stephen and Julie sat.
Con's:
Wanted to juggle every day this week...did so but got hours less of practice time in then I wanted
Looked forward to my weekend off..now work 5 days this week and only one day off this weekend
So no two days off until Tuesday
Wanted to get some pictures and some footage of juggling...none of it has turned out well yet.
Miss Nathan a Lot, don't know when I'll hear from him next and don't know when I'll see him next...
Have had a couple really rough days at work, and my best friend who always makes me feel better and vent to isn't here.
Sunburned and sore
Still a lot I wanted to do and hardly any time to do it
It's rained the past 2 days I've wanted to do things outside.
Potential Pro or Con....the week isn't over.
I hope Nathans week is at least going really well, he needs this.
Was in a great mood at the beginning of the week and it has deteriorated progressively since then. I hope I can build it back up... I guess whats frustrated me today is how sore I've been and work was awful today, like nothing good to say about it. I came home so tired I could barely move so I passed out on the futon...finally got myself up and going, had dinner and helped my mom...by then its like 7:30...I wanted to start practicing around 4...got a couple hours in, until it got hard to see, but even though there was improvement I was just really frustrated with it...I just get angry at myself when I don't feel like im progressing fast enough and I feel like a failure as a decent juggler which not only makes me feel like im failing myself and my own goals but Nathan's as well. I know im being dramatic, there are some things I can do just fine...I still just am not what I want to be..so back at it again tomorrow as much as possible, of course assuming I don't get stuck at work all day and get caught up in what everyone else wants me to go...I guess what makes all this more frustrating is that I had high expectations for this week and my productivity..and I've had some but not nearly what I wanted..at least I've made sure to juggle every day.
Ooookay, going to stop complaining and head to bed..
Tomorrow is a new day, Im not looking forward to it at all but I really ought to drop the attitude and lighten up...who knows what will happen and maybe some good will come out of it...ha now lets see if I can convince myself to believe it...I miss Nathan...I miss his voice...it soothes me... :'(