Sep 14, 2005 23:01
"All that matters is nothing that matters"
Hey guys my birthday was like 2 days ago (SWEET 16) so over rated. I feel absolutely the same ,no different
I also want to apoligize to the people that are so offended by the way I exist ,I really don't consider myself an unhappy person
I'm usually very spunky and glad to be alive. I've just been down lately because I've lost my best friend ,shes not dead but she moved and I let her be the only person I ever wanted to be around for so long and we hungout 24/7 and in doing that I've alienated the rest of the people that I claim to care so much about (sorry guys)
I've been doing okay considering I see her alot on the weekends and she seems to be doing well....
I thank all the people that wished me a happy birthday because it meant alot I haven't been to school in three days do to a sty infection in my left eye which causes unbearable paining headaches and an acute allergy to light.it sucks. but I'm some how still overwelmed with hope and happiness do to my perfect birthday,and (friends and kelly!!) that made it so great. I'll probably be at school tomorrow but I thought that yesterday,so we'll see how that goes.
i really want to contiue writing but, i can't so
love you all.more than ever
~Nell~
and pain