God.......finally
It is so refreshing to no longer be hanging myself by my heart and my gonads.....with the twine of useless unnecessary drama. Why that took me so long to figure out, I just don't know. I put myself at ease, and i think i somewhat put Amanda at ease, but from here all focus will be on my actions. I must now prove to her that I really meant the words that I said to her. Shouldn't be too hard, cuz I really mean what i said, and i am just plain tired of the torture. No More Drama!! It is just not worth it. There is nothing to gain. Except loneliness. Not exactly what i am looking for. It was just long past due to clean up my act, and to mellow the f%#* out, like I used to be. What can i say, i freaked. I feel really bad about that. I really aggravated some people that I really care about, including myself. That was then, this now. It IS in the past, so now I go from here. Wish me luck. Nah, nevermind. I won't need it. I am good to go. Thank you everybody for your support, and for bearing with me while I drove you all crazy.