Ok so I didn't think this journal was even active anymore because of how long it's been since I've written in it..haha. Anyway, things are going ok in life... except for my job. I hate it. I would rather eat shit than go to this job every day. I'm serious. I'm getting married in 4 1/2 months and I still have so much to do.. I can't even stand ( Read more... )

I can't believe some of the choices I made in my life... what was I thinking? I fucked up so many things... made such wrong choices.. and there isn't anything I can do to change any of it.

Yeah it was one of those Mondays... Work sucked and I was in a pretty bad mood all day. It seems like everything that I have ever worried about in my life crossed my mind today. I have been visiting a couple dating sites to see if I want to sign up or not.. and I became very distraught when I saw that there are people well into their 60's on this ( Read more... )

So... vacation was good all in all. I am really not looking forward to going back to work tomorrow because I know that no one helped me with any of my shit, and my inbox will be overflowing with about 750 pointless emails that will take me about half the day to sort through ( Read more... )

If someone could please explain to me why, no matter what I do, I can't seem to meet a decent guy... I would greatly appreciate it. Thank you.

Yesterday I went to to Matunuck Beach in Rhode Island with my family.. My aunt lives down there and we had a party for the fourth. I am sunburned all over my body and I don't understand how I got burned this bad because I had an SPF 45 sunblock on. It's really pissing me off because it feels like my whole body is on fire. I keep slathering ( Read more... )

So it's Sunday, it's hot as hell and there's nothing to do. Not like I have the motivation to do anything anyway. This weekend flew by, and I didn't really do that much. I went out to dinner with my family last night and it was cool to do something together for a change. It's been a long time since we've done that. I went and saw Rachel today ( Read more... )

I just found it kind of odd, after reading through these old entries, not once did I mention the fact that Josh and I ended our engagement. I didn't write it down anywhere, actually. I don't know why.. usually when something life-changing happens to me, I write it down everywhere so I don't forget it. But that, I never did ( Read more... )

I really should be in the shower right now, because I smell completely of horse. My cats are sniffing me trying to figure out what it is they smell... lol. I had a lesson tonight and it went good.. I'm still bouncing around in the saddle a lot because my leg muscles are so weak.. but hopefully I'll get better each time ( Read more... )

Wow, I just read through some of my older entries... I can't believe I actually let myself drown in that much sorrow... No matter... things are much, much better now... I've been through a few boyfriends since all that crap, and even though none have worked out, I've gained some good friends and learned some more life lessons. I'm on my own, but ( Read more... )