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Its weird. Knowing that everyone is moving on and here we all stay at the same time. All summer people were asking, so aren't you excited to be a senior? And of course the standard answer is, yeah it's gonna be great. But then last week Patti asked me if I was sad that everyone was leaving. And so perfectly she and Lin captured the feelings that I have inside. Senior year is gonna be great and I'm so excited, but at the same time, so depressed. My friends are leaving me. And this summer we have become such better friends. Most of my friends my age were gone all summer or really busy so I didn't see then as often. Which is totally understandable, but this definitely set me up to have a summer with everyone else. And not only did I bond with the people older than me, but some more people my age. Its so great to face my senior year with an enriched friends base. But like I was saying its weird and scary. And with everything thats happened to me this summer, I don't know how I could have handled it without my friends. The ones that are staying here and the ones that are leaving. The other day Igor told me that it was so weird that I was going to be a senior. He was like, hey I remember you as a freshman. And all I could think was, yeah me too. The road from freshman to senior has been really difficult to navigate and the people that I have met along the way have changed me more than I would have ever guessed they would. So basically what I have realized is that this has probably been the most changing summer of my life. Its weird, I thought it would just pass with no excitement because I had no plans or expectations for it. I think thats what made it so special. I didn't spend a month overseas or two months at camp. Hell, I didn't even leave the state, but I made some fantastic memories, had some scary moments and spent the summer making lifelong friendships. Nothing can beat that.