Life, Interrupted
It has been exactly one year since I posted last, which is easily the longest hiatus I have ever taken from this journal in the 12 years I've kept it. I do intend to update more frequently, as writing is A Thing I Must Do Everyday right now.
Life! What's up with life. I'm not sure. Not me, terribly. Depression has been a big ol' bitch. I have been working with a system that's half HabitRPG, half my own created skill tree, and it's been very successful in helping me get new habits that are healthier. I've been seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist. Not eating better, but I have been exercising for the past month and change. None of this has had that much impact on my mood, I'm afraid.
So: depressed. Boring because of it. Hungry for stimulation.
Writing daily is one of those habits I'm working on. The goal is 250 words, on any project (or in here). Slow going so far, but I started this habit right before burning out on doing anything for two weeks, so I'm being patient with myself. The gym takes a lot out of me, honestly.
What are happy things? Life isn't *awful*, just kind of grey. Happy things! I, hmm, I . . . have been reading more. Enjoying the spring weather. Spending lots of time sitting and smelling the warm, wet air and just letting myself think. Sleeping, so much sleeping! That's not really a good thing but it *feels* good. Just living.
That's good enough for now.
Life! What's up with life. I'm not sure. Not me, terribly. Depression has been a big ol' bitch. I have been working with a system that's half HabitRPG, half my own created skill tree, and it's been very successful in helping me get new habits that are healthier. I've been seeing a psychiatrist and a therapist. Not eating better, but I have been exercising for the past month and change. None of this has had that much impact on my mood, I'm afraid.
So: depressed. Boring because of it. Hungry for stimulation.
Writing daily is one of those habits I'm working on. The goal is 250 words, on any project (or in here). Slow going so far, but I started this habit right before burning out on doing anything for two weeks, so I'm being patient with myself. The gym takes a lot out of me, honestly.
What are happy things? Life isn't *awful*, just kind of grey. Happy things! I, hmm, I . . . have been reading more. Enjoying the spring weather. Spending lots of time sitting and smelling the warm, wet air and just letting myself think. Sleeping, so much sleeping! That's not really a good thing but it *feels* good. Just living.
That's good enough for now.