Moment Number 8
Moment Number 8: FANTASY/SHARPIE NIGHT WITH CAITLIN (Summer 2005)
if I were truely to rank these moments according to importance/favorites this would truely be in my top 3, but I felt impulsed to write about it today when i read this :
"To Lenni:
I do not know what I will do without you. Not only will my life have a major whole in it, but Concord- will NEVER be the same. It's not ACTS without you. You have been such an important part of my life- and I never want to lose that. Don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve something- because you deserve it all. You deserve to make it big, you deserve to fall in love- and you deserve to be happy. Please don't forget that. You're the most talented and beautiful person i know- inside and out. Remember that. Also remember that we all have flaws, luckily yours just make everyone love your company so much more. You're real Lenni, unlike 98% of this world. I said this before at the last ACTS show, but I'll say it again. I'm so privileged to have had the chance to know you and to call you my best friend. I love you.
Caitlin."
Caitlin Labadini is without a doubt the closest thing I have to a sister. my love for her goes beyond that of a best friend. Caitlin came into my life when she was about 5 and I was 7. Although we had our troubles and mishaps after years of choosing to hang out with her older, cooler, or as I'd say "mad hip" sister, Sarah, Caitlin and I began to form a bond with each other unlike any I would ever make throughout high school. The summer of 2005, we both spent mourning the losses of boyfriends... well caitlin mourned the loss of many since she had a new one every day. She would sit on my bed with me and hold my hand as I bawled, reading aloud from my journal of the past 2 years. Because of the distance Caitlin lived from her weekend and summer activities, she would pratically live with me for weeks, and sometimes months on end.
One day after camp (where we both work) I climbed in bed alone and began to bawl. Caitlin found me curled in a fetal position and without asking knew that I inevitably was suffering heart break. I jsut looked at her and asked her if she'd come snuggle me bc I was just wanted to be held. Without even questioning, she did. OF COURSE it got a little strange when I asked her to act out one of my fantasies... obviously i was kidding, but just because she wanted to make me feel better and continue to lighten the mood she complied and pretended to "be the guy",... as she always is the guy :) We soon fell sleep side by side in my twin bed. One of the millions of reasons I love this girl is because she is the ONE person that I know will NEVER leave my side until she knows I am okay. Thats true friendship.
The second moment occured that same summer. After a "run" we found our selves bored and decided it would be fun to draw on ourselves and each other with sharpie. We began to decorate caitlins old pair of jeans but realized that our color scheme was lame and that we needed more colors. As we walked a good half hour to a CVS, simply to buy more Sharpies, I became terrified that it was getting dark out and that we would get stolen, raped, or shot by crazy people hiding in bushes, following us about. As I trotted ahead caitlin, the street smart one, laughed at my naivety and confidently reassured me that she could def take them out. When we finally got back home, we spent HOURS decorating our pants. After we drew crazy designs and wrote each other long letters that included just a FEW of our many inside jokes, we thought it would be interesting to draw portraits of each other. Apparantly Caitlin views me as a blind asian. I see her as a potato.
i still sport these pants every once and awhile, despite the strange and embarassing stares people give me. Honestly, they make me feel better.... they remind of Caitlin and how much I love her. Reading her letter down my pant leg reminds me of all the crazy and endless times we've spent together since we were 5 adn 7 years old. It remnds me that if there is only one person who will ever be able to understand me.... it will be Caitlin... and I'm okay knowing that bc I know that she listens and really hears what I say. I know that jsut as I hurt when she hurts, she is able to feel my pain. She has never judged me for anything ive done, despite her personal views. Leaving her will be more difficult than leaving any of my other friends.... bc she isnt like any of my other friends... shes my caitlin! But knowing how we work, I know she will wind up homeless again at somepoint and living with my in a cardboard box in the middle of NYC and it will be amazing
i love you!!!! and you are forever my favorite!! I'm the luckiest girl in the world to have you as a best friend. thank you
if I were truely to rank these moments according to importance/favorites this would truely be in my top 3, but I felt impulsed to write about it today when i read this :
"To Lenni:
I do not know what I will do without you. Not only will my life have a major whole in it, but Concord- will NEVER be the same. It's not ACTS without you. You have been such an important part of my life- and I never want to lose that. Don't let anyone ever make you feel like you don't deserve something- because you deserve it all. You deserve to make it big, you deserve to fall in love- and you deserve to be happy. Please don't forget that. You're the most talented and beautiful person i know- inside and out. Remember that. Also remember that we all have flaws, luckily yours just make everyone love your company so much more. You're real Lenni, unlike 98% of this world. I said this before at the last ACTS show, but I'll say it again. I'm so privileged to have had the chance to know you and to call you my best friend. I love you.
Caitlin."
Caitlin Labadini is without a doubt the closest thing I have to a sister. my love for her goes beyond that of a best friend. Caitlin came into my life when she was about 5 and I was 7. Although we had our troubles and mishaps after years of choosing to hang out with her older, cooler, or as I'd say "mad hip" sister, Sarah, Caitlin and I began to form a bond with each other unlike any I would ever make throughout high school. The summer of 2005, we both spent mourning the losses of boyfriends... well caitlin mourned the loss of many since she had a new one every day. She would sit on my bed with me and hold my hand as I bawled, reading aloud from my journal of the past 2 years. Because of the distance Caitlin lived from her weekend and summer activities, she would pratically live with me for weeks, and sometimes months on end.
One day after camp (where we both work) I climbed in bed alone and began to bawl. Caitlin found me curled in a fetal position and without asking knew that I inevitably was suffering heart break. I jsut looked at her and asked her if she'd come snuggle me bc I was just wanted to be held. Without even questioning, she did. OF COURSE it got a little strange when I asked her to act out one of my fantasies... obviously i was kidding, but just because she wanted to make me feel better and continue to lighten the mood she complied and pretended to "be the guy",... as she always is the guy :) We soon fell sleep side by side in my twin bed. One of the millions of reasons I love this girl is because she is the ONE person that I know will NEVER leave my side until she knows I am okay. Thats true friendship.
The second moment occured that same summer. After a "run" we found our selves bored and decided it would be fun to draw on ourselves and each other with sharpie. We began to decorate caitlins old pair of jeans but realized that our color scheme was lame and that we needed more colors. As we walked a good half hour to a CVS, simply to buy more Sharpies, I became terrified that it was getting dark out and that we would get stolen, raped, or shot by crazy people hiding in bushes, following us about. As I trotted ahead caitlin, the street smart one, laughed at my naivety and confidently reassured me that she could def take them out. When we finally got back home, we spent HOURS decorating our pants. After we drew crazy designs and wrote each other long letters that included just a FEW of our many inside jokes, we thought it would be interesting to draw portraits of each other. Apparantly Caitlin views me as a blind asian. I see her as a potato.
i still sport these pants every once and awhile, despite the strange and embarassing stares people give me. Honestly, they make me feel better.... they remind of Caitlin and how much I love her. Reading her letter down my pant leg reminds me of all the crazy and endless times we've spent together since we were 5 adn 7 years old. It remnds me that if there is only one person who will ever be able to understand me.... it will be Caitlin... and I'm okay knowing that bc I know that she listens and really hears what I say. I know that jsut as I hurt when she hurts, she is able to feel my pain. She has never judged me for anything ive done, despite her personal views. Leaving her will be more difficult than leaving any of my other friends.... bc she isnt like any of my other friends... shes my caitlin! But knowing how we work, I know she will wind up homeless again at somepoint and living with my in a cardboard box in the middle of NYC and it will be amazing
i love you!!!! and you are forever my favorite!! I'm the luckiest girl in the world to have you as a best friend. thank you