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i have to get this down coz i feel like im starting to lose my mind
or at least get lost in these thoughts, and i reallyreally have to make some sense out of this.
do you think you could have feelings for more than one person at the same time? because, i KNOW that i like them for their individual reasons, but i don't know if it's really the product of me 'moving on' and 'getting on with my life'.
my understanding of myself has kinda gone down the drain in the past 2 days. it's been brewing, slowly sinking lately, but i came to a conclusion yesterday. he's not out of my system. 'Manly' is still very much in my system.
when it comes down to it, if i have one person to choose... argh, see now im confusing myself again.
i had intially thought it would be him. and only him. but apparently not coz it's probably me just trying to protect myself coz it could never happen again with him.. that's so sad...! (oh god i really have to finish off my thoughts before jumping to adjacent ones).
AHEM.
long story short, i am liking a couple of boys atm, and im not sure if the root of it is rebounding from something gREat i had a while back. im not sure if i should be doing anything about it, even though these boys, i think, are absolutely awesome ppl.
i just keep on thinking, that all the fun ive been having in these past couple of months has all been part of getting back on track. but i just wish that i had someone, esp. the person who started all this, to share this with.
chaos is just about to start, and ive seem to have been able to create abit of a war with myself ahead of this chaos.
aw dear...
or at least get lost in these thoughts, and i reallyreally have to make some sense out of this.
do you think you could have feelings for more than one person at the same time? because, i KNOW that i like them for their individual reasons, but i don't know if it's really the product of me 'moving on' and 'getting on with my life'.
my understanding of myself has kinda gone down the drain in the past 2 days. it's been brewing, slowly sinking lately, but i came to a conclusion yesterday. he's not out of my system. 'Manly' is still very much in my system.
when it comes down to it, if i have one person to choose... argh, see now im confusing myself again.
i had intially thought it would be him. and only him. but apparently not coz it's probably me just trying to protect myself coz it could never happen again with him.. that's so sad...! (oh god i really have to finish off my thoughts before jumping to adjacent ones).
AHEM.
long story short, i am liking a couple of boys atm, and im not sure if the root of it is rebounding from something gREat i had a while back. im not sure if i should be doing anything about it, even though these boys, i think, are absolutely awesome ppl.
i just keep on thinking, that all the fun ive been having in these past couple of months has all been part of getting back on track. but i just wish that i had someone, esp. the person who started all this, to share this with.
chaos is just about to start, and ive seem to have been able to create abit of a war with myself ahead of this chaos.
aw dear...