are we listening

[toomanyangels]

Ok so here is the deal. If you have read Aimee's entry you will probably not want to read this one to because its basically the same thing. Apparently Aimee and I are mean people. I did not realize this about myself due to the fact that I try my hardest to be nice to everyone. But there are some people who I just straight up don't get along with and I don't like, but when I say things to them I just basically am saying it in a sarcastic tone. For example, when I make fun of Eben for taking a shit in my toilet and plugging it I do it out of sarcasm and I mean the kid had to expect that something was going to happen. I guess my biggest thing is if I am so damn mean to everyone than why do people insist on coming in my room to hang out with the 2 mean people. Also why do people rely on us to make sure that everyone is going to dinner and make sure that if people may want to go with us they can. Infact if we don't do that they get mad at us. I guess my biggest thing is that I have worked hard to get to where I am as a person. If you had experienced as much death and emotional pain that I have you would probably have an issue with getting close to other people and being nice and the happy pleasent person that I probably should be every day. I guess that my thing is if you think that I'm a mean person have a one on one conversation with me and you realize that when I'm not in a large group of people joking around that I can be a very nice person, and if you don't want to take that extra step to do that don't associate with me, because the last thing that I need is someone that I care about really thinking that I am mean.
Sorry to dissapoint anyone and sorry if I am such a mean person that you can't come and talk to me about it.
I guess thats it for now.

later kids

XOXO
Kayla