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wow, im updating.
im back at cnu. jesse and i are still together. im really sick of everyone telling us to break up, especially ramsey. shes not one to talk, considering she is still calling nick, the guy shes been with for 4 years that pulled a gun on us, put her in the hospital, and stalks her. if you really want to make someone leave you alone you can. she gets on my nerves so much.
i hate school so much. i guess im taking too many classes.
jesse has been partying for like a week straight, so once the weekend hit it was my turn. treavor and lezlie and i got some liquor and started to get krunk. then i went home to the wifey, i mean jesse. saturday i went to peabodys with ramsey and i remembered why i hate clubs so much. we went for our mutual birthdays. its kind of tradition. we usually go to the beach house, but we hadnt been there for like 2 years. so we went...got out of the car, saw that the line was 2 blocks long, and that there was not one white person in it. so we had to go to peabodys...which sucks, i hate that place. but it was ok, we had more fun just being goofy. then i went home to the wifey again. hell, i love the kid, i like going home to him. i just wish it was like the summer where i basically lived with him. he asked me to move in with him the day before i left for school. too bad gas prices are such hell, otherwise i might have taken him up on the offer. we argue a lot, but i think thats just our way of getting to know each other. his mom loves me, and i love her. she told me that her one wish in life for jesse was for him to marry me. i thought that was sweet. hes freaking out cuz he hasnt gotten paid for the construction job hes been doing, and my b day is thursday. he doesnt need to get me anything, he better just provide me with oodles and oodles of sexual relations...he will...he always does.
im happy with jesse, even though people dont think i am. you dont see us when its me and him, its different. i wish everyone would get off my ass about it. stop telling me to break up with him because you dont like him. i know ill probably be kicking myself in a few weeks about this, and telling everyone that they were right, but i want to give him a chance. he tries so hard to make me happy, and he does. yeah, we argue, but what couple doesnt. we have more stress in our lives than most couples. he has to single handedly take care of his family. i have 2 jobs and 18 credit hours along with other shit.
i have so much school work to do, fuck this shit, im never taking 18 hours again! blah...i guess 3 semesters of it is enough.
im really not happy here, i wish i could just go back to the ghetto and have jesse hold me all day telling me that everything is going to be ok. wow, i never thought i would say i would rather be living in the ghetto than in a nice suburban dorm apt with all white people. i must be miserable.
im back at cnu. jesse and i are still together. im really sick of everyone telling us to break up, especially ramsey. shes not one to talk, considering she is still calling nick, the guy shes been with for 4 years that pulled a gun on us, put her in the hospital, and stalks her. if you really want to make someone leave you alone you can. she gets on my nerves so much.
i hate school so much. i guess im taking too many classes.
jesse has been partying for like a week straight, so once the weekend hit it was my turn. treavor and lezlie and i got some liquor and started to get krunk. then i went home to the wifey, i mean jesse. saturday i went to peabodys with ramsey and i remembered why i hate clubs so much. we went for our mutual birthdays. its kind of tradition. we usually go to the beach house, but we hadnt been there for like 2 years. so we went...got out of the car, saw that the line was 2 blocks long, and that there was not one white person in it. so we had to go to peabodys...which sucks, i hate that place. but it was ok, we had more fun just being goofy. then i went home to the wifey again. hell, i love the kid, i like going home to him. i just wish it was like the summer where i basically lived with him. he asked me to move in with him the day before i left for school. too bad gas prices are such hell, otherwise i might have taken him up on the offer. we argue a lot, but i think thats just our way of getting to know each other. his mom loves me, and i love her. she told me that her one wish in life for jesse was for him to marry me. i thought that was sweet. hes freaking out cuz he hasnt gotten paid for the construction job hes been doing, and my b day is thursday. he doesnt need to get me anything, he better just provide me with oodles and oodles of sexual relations...he will...he always does.
im happy with jesse, even though people dont think i am. you dont see us when its me and him, its different. i wish everyone would get off my ass about it. stop telling me to break up with him because you dont like him. i know ill probably be kicking myself in a few weeks about this, and telling everyone that they were right, but i want to give him a chance. he tries so hard to make me happy, and he does. yeah, we argue, but what couple doesnt. we have more stress in our lives than most couples. he has to single handedly take care of his family. i have 2 jobs and 18 credit hours along with other shit.
i have so much school work to do, fuck this shit, im never taking 18 hours again! blah...i guess 3 semesters of it is enough.
im really not happy here, i wish i could just go back to the ghetto and have jesse hold me all day telling me that everything is going to be ok. wow, i never thought i would say i would rather be living in the ghetto than in a nice suburban dorm apt with all white people. i must be miserable.