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so me and james might be done for good. forever. for always. i dont really know i dont want to be at all but im done giving him chances i dont have to deal with it, it he loves me and whats to be with me then he should and he should put me first
Last night he said he would call around 6 did he NO then he said around 8 did he NO then he said he was on his way home and when he got there he would call YES A HOUR LATER!! he could have talked me me but instead he would rather talk to sonya (joshs girlfriend) dads than me that is BULLSHIT and im not dealing with it i hate when were not together and the closes thing i can get to him is talking on the phone and if he is not going to do that then he really doesnt love me or what to be close with me and thats the fact. i should not have to wait in line of take a number for him to call, he should not choose someone over me. i do love him but i love myself more than to let him think he can treat me like this he thinks im kidding and im not, he says its stupid well i dont. if he loved me he would just change it if its really that stupid.
I dont work at all this week because i took off thur and kellie gave me tues off to lol dont know why, but i took someone elses hours so i will work today it was only 5-9 but kellie is goin to let me stay till 11 and i might see if i can go in early. i might work this weekend because im not going to have enough money to pay my cell phone bill let alone go out
James got a interview wed thats cool. i dont know if we break up if i will keep the cell phone i might just get a new one so i will forget about him and we wont have each others numbers even know for the rest of my life i will onlys kow that number... yeah the number that nevers calls, unless its good for him..
Well i really hope james works everythings out this is his last chance and i dont want to lose him because i love him with all my heart but i dont want to lose my self respect either