New School, Olde Flame
I'm very tired. I've spent a lot of time trying to distract myself. I've mostly been burying myself in my work, new friends, and regrettably my problems which I have been trying to distract myself from.
As far as I can tell, I'm totally screwed here. I loved Tiffiany and I still do. That seems to be my big problem. She won't answer my calls, didn't even answer when I called to tell her happy birthday last friday. She won't answer because she hates me, is really hurt, or both. The why on all this is really quite simple. Everyone only knows one story, and in that story I cheated on her. I didn't do that, but everyone thinks so, and tells her so. So, I guess a lie said enough times becomes the truth regardless of whatever else.
I assume someone just wanted to hurt both of us, but I don't know. I just know that I have no idea how to fix any of this. I love Tiffiany and I don't want to have to just let her go over all this. I guess that could be weak of me or something, but I don't care.
Hollie Bland messaged me to find out what I had to say, but I suppose it was pointless because she knows and doesn't want to do anything with it as far as I can tell. She even told me I had to apologize to someone even though I had already done that. I didn't want to hurt her, but I had to in order to get what I wanted. Yet, now I have nothing. I hurt someone and sacrificed my own principles for Tiffiany and now she won't even answer my calls. For whatever reason, I still love her too.
I guess I have to write her letters. She means so much to me, but it's quite painful to keep going on this way, missing her so much. I can't even speak to her. I need some help here. Her big thing seems to be that I'm the only one who says I didn't cheat on her and that I did break up with someone a long time ago. Now, thanks to all these rumors, I'm screwed out of what I gave up so much for.
I just don't know what to do here to get her back. If I could talk to her in person I could fix all this I bet, but I can't even speak to her on the phone. I just want to fix all this or it all to be fixed or anything. I'm very tired. I'm especially tired of thinking about her all the time and not being able to do anything about the idea of losing her because of things that didn't even happen. If all that stuff was true, I'd just give up.
I'm hoping that everything gets better. I have to hope because there isn't much else I can do. I tried calling her earlier tonight. No answer, of course. I don't know. I'm tired. I need some help.
As far as I can tell, I'm totally screwed here. I loved Tiffiany and I still do. That seems to be my big problem. She won't answer my calls, didn't even answer when I called to tell her happy birthday last friday. She won't answer because she hates me, is really hurt, or both. The why on all this is really quite simple. Everyone only knows one story, and in that story I cheated on her. I didn't do that, but everyone thinks so, and tells her so. So, I guess a lie said enough times becomes the truth regardless of whatever else.
I assume someone just wanted to hurt both of us, but I don't know. I just know that I have no idea how to fix any of this. I love Tiffiany and I don't want to have to just let her go over all this. I guess that could be weak of me or something, but I don't care.
Hollie Bland messaged me to find out what I had to say, but I suppose it was pointless because she knows and doesn't want to do anything with it as far as I can tell. She even told me I had to apologize to someone even though I had already done that. I didn't want to hurt her, but I had to in order to get what I wanted. Yet, now I have nothing. I hurt someone and sacrificed my own principles for Tiffiany and now she won't even answer my calls. For whatever reason, I still love her too.
I guess I have to write her letters. She means so much to me, but it's quite painful to keep going on this way, missing her so much. I can't even speak to her. I need some help here. Her big thing seems to be that I'm the only one who says I didn't cheat on her and that I did break up with someone a long time ago. Now, thanks to all these rumors, I'm screwed out of what I gave up so much for.
I just don't know what to do here to get her back. If I could talk to her in person I could fix all this I bet, but I can't even speak to her on the phone. I just want to fix all this or it all to be fixed or anything. I'm very tired. I'm especially tired of thinking about her all the time and not being able to do anything about the idea of losing her because of things that didn't even happen. If all that stuff was true, I'd just give up.
I'm hoping that everything gets better. I have to hope because there isn't much else I can do. I tried calling her earlier tonight. No answer, of course. I don't know. I'm tired. I need some help.