"6am and already the boy aint right"
Im really kinda pissed right now. yeah yeah, I know I havent updated in awhile, sorry bout that. But, now I got lots of shit to get off my mind.
Ive been down south for a lil more almost a fuckin year now. 9 of those months were spent goin out with someone whom I was madly in love with. Who fucked with my emotions time and time again, and even still does now that we are even broken up.
When I moved down here, I put off establishing an actual social life for her. Back in NY, I could easily hang out with someone, any time, night or day. I didnt have an amazin social life back there, but I still had a decent amount of friends. I dont think she realized how hard it was for me to do what I did for her. I made my life sleep, work, and her, and occasionally, if I was lucky, doin somethin with my roommate.
I was ok with it, cause she was all I really needed. Then came the day, she cheated on me, and broke up with me to go out with another guy. It took me a lil time to start gettin over it, which I prolly never will fully, but since then, Ive been tryin to establish a social life down here. And slowly but surely, I actually am.
But, even when I meet a new girl, or wanna go out late or what not, my ex still seems to almost try to control me, which is mad fucked up. Since me and her broke up, Ive been tryin my absolute fuckin hardest to be a really good friend to her, cause I still care for her, and always will. She calls me up crying, I talk to her, try to calm her, comfort her, make HER feel better. Even at 3 in the mornin, after only 2 hours of sleep and me having to wake up at 5:30am.
She still acts mean towards me, and shows little to no respect towards how I feel or what I have to say. She treats me like her punchin bag / security blanket. Oh, good ol tom wont ever stop being there for me. Ive always, and still try to look out for her, and her best interest.
But, anywho. Last thursday, I was called up by my friend Gabriela, who I met like, a month ago or something, and havent heard from her in like, weeks. She invites me to play pool with her, this girl daniele (who cant hold her liquor worth shit), and ethan (this dude from texas, who talks like he's gay, but he's not, he's mad chill).
So, we play some pool, and I school them all, well, not really, but it was fun, and ethan invites me to a lil get together at his house on friday, awesome, I had no plans, wanna get drunk, sounds good.
I get there, its me and him. And we just talked about fucked up shit we have done to people's food and coffee and shit while we worked in the food type industry. Gabriela gets there, cool. Daniele shows up with two friends, michelle, who seems nice, and Sarah, who is the cause of some happiness for me.
the night goes on, and most of us are drunk, and of course, gabriella suggests we put a porn on, which we do. Im chillin in this chair, and lil ms. sarah sat on my lap and shit, it was nice. Had my arms around her waist and shit, it felt good, it had been awhile since I had any kinda contact with a female.
I went outside to smoke a cig, came in, and we just hung out in the kitchen for a lil while, and just like, talked. It was awesome... that is untill daniele went fuckin insane and was jibba jabberin about bullshit. Sarah had to leave in a hurry with her, and I didnt get her number... that is untill I got it from ethan.
I hung went to sarah's house yesteday mornin for a few hours, just chillin, and watchin her clean. I actually enjoyed it. Then last night, she called me up at like, 11:30, went over there, chilled for ahwile, and even scored a head rub, which was fuckin awesome.
I really dig this girl, and I think she might be interested in me, but as we all know, when it comes to shit like that, Im fuckin retarded. So, Ima just see whats up next time we chill. Hopefully next weekend, I wish it was sooner, but her schedule is fuckin insane. I'll update again though, if I gotta vent about something else, or shit actually goes pimp daddy smug smooth. Lata ya fucks.
Ive been down south for a lil more almost a fuckin year now. 9 of those months were spent goin out with someone whom I was madly in love with. Who fucked with my emotions time and time again, and even still does now that we are even broken up.
When I moved down here, I put off establishing an actual social life for her. Back in NY, I could easily hang out with someone, any time, night or day. I didnt have an amazin social life back there, but I still had a decent amount of friends. I dont think she realized how hard it was for me to do what I did for her. I made my life sleep, work, and her, and occasionally, if I was lucky, doin somethin with my roommate.
I was ok with it, cause she was all I really needed. Then came the day, she cheated on me, and broke up with me to go out with another guy. It took me a lil time to start gettin over it, which I prolly never will fully, but since then, Ive been tryin to establish a social life down here. And slowly but surely, I actually am.
But, even when I meet a new girl, or wanna go out late or what not, my ex still seems to almost try to control me, which is mad fucked up. Since me and her broke up, Ive been tryin my absolute fuckin hardest to be a really good friend to her, cause I still care for her, and always will. She calls me up crying, I talk to her, try to calm her, comfort her, make HER feel better. Even at 3 in the mornin, after only 2 hours of sleep and me having to wake up at 5:30am.
She still acts mean towards me, and shows little to no respect towards how I feel or what I have to say. She treats me like her punchin bag / security blanket. Oh, good ol tom wont ever stop being there for me. Ive always, and still try to look out for her, and her best interest.
But, anywho. Last thursday, I was called up by my friend Gabriela, who I met like, a month ago or something, and havent heard from her in like, weeks. She invites me to play pool with her, this girl daniele (who cant hold her liquor worth shit), and ethan (this dude from texas, who talks like he's gay, but he's not, he's mad chill).
So, we play some pool, and I school them all, well, not really, but it was fun, and ethan invites me to a lil get together at his house on friday, awesome, I had no plans, wanna get drunk, sounds good.
I get there, its me and him. And we just talked about fucked up shit we have done to people's food and coffee and shit while we worked in the food type industry. Gabriela gets there, cool. Daniele shows up with two friends, michelle, who seems nice, and Sarah, who is the cause of some happiness for me.
the night goes on, and most of us are drunk, and of course, gabriella suggests we put a porn on, which we do. Im chillin in this chair, and lil ms. sarah sat on my lap and shit, it was nice. Had my arms around her waist and shit, it felt good, it had been awhile since I had any kinda contact with a female.
I went outside to smoke a cig, came in, and we just hung out in the kitchen for a lil while, and just like, talked. It was awesome... that is untill daniele went fuckin insane and was jibba jabberin about bullshit. Sarah had to leave in a hurry with her, and I didnt get her number... that is untill I got it from ethan.
I hung went to sarah's house yesteday mornin for a few hours, just chillin, and watchin her clean. I actually enjoyed it. Then last night, she called me up at like, 11:30, went over there, chilled for ahwile, and even scored a head rub, which was fuckin awesome.
I really dig this girl, and I think she might be interested in me, but as we all know, when it comes to shit like that, Im fuckin retarded. So, Ima just see whats up next time we chill. Hopefully next weekend, I wish it was sooner, but her schedule is fuckin insane. I'll update again though, if I gotta vent about something else, or shit actually goes pimp daddy smug smooth. Lata ya fucks.