i don't want to be the one you 'love' just because no one else is there
the weather has been beautiful, yet for some reason so many people are feeling terrible. i'm not sure what it is. work used to be a place i could go and i could count on the people there putting a smile on my face. but right now it seems as if we're all about ready to kill, i'm glad i have the next four days off. this weekend is going to be fun, after the whole ACT part anyways. things aren't going to go exactly how i had hoped they would when it was all planned out, but i know i'm still going to have a good time.
why is it that i can clearly see that it was not something that i needed in my life, that it was not what was best, that it was not a good idea, but i get my feelings wrapped up in it anyways? i'm not talking about one time or one person, i'm talking about all the time. it's time to stop looking at the 25% good, because that isn't going to cut it anymore.
i wish that i understood how i felt. i can never quite figure it out. my feelings seem to fluctuate, not to such extremes by any means, but it still makes it difficult. i'm feeling a lot. but i'm honestly not mad or angry or hostile, nothing like that.
theres a lot on my mind, a lot i'd like to say. but i don't want to say anything i might want to take back, because believe me i know (i'm sure we all do) how it feels when someone says something they only mean for a temporary period of time. you can't just take back what you say, so if you aren't sure if you mean it, perhaps it's better left unsaid.
my promise is not broken, but please consider it void. i doubt you ever kept yours anyways.
why is it that i can clearly see that it was not something that i needed in my life, that it was not what was best, that it was not a good idea, but i get my feelings wrapped up in it anyways? i'm not talking about one time or one person, i'm talking about all the time. it's time to stop looking at the 25% good, because that isn't going to cut it anymore.
i wish that i understood how i felt. i can never quite figure it out. my feelings seem to fluctuate, not to such extremes by any means, but it still makes it difficult. i'm feeling a lot. but i'm honestly not mad or angry or hostile, nothing like that.
theres a lot on my mind, a lot i'd like to say. but i don't want to say anything i might want to take back, because believe me i know (i'm sure we all do) how it feels when someone says something they only mean for a temporary period of time. you can't just take back what you say, so if you aren't sure if you mean it, perhaps it's better left unsaid.
my promise is not broken, but please consider it void. i doubt you ever kept yours anyways.