Dennis, I went through the same thing last Spring. I know what you're talking about the friendship and the endless hours you spend thinking about it. I know that all too well. I mean, everyone can sit here and say "I know what it's like" and tell you this or that. But I can sit here and say that I'm still recovering from what you are doing as I type this. Yes, that's right, STILL recovering.
This may not be what you want to hear, but if you're going through what I did, I think you need to hear this. You've got to prepare yourself, and make sure you learn patience. It's not going to get better, yet, until you've hit rock bottom. But, that's not a bad thing. I honestly believe that I'm a better person today for hitting the bottom, and bouncing back up. You've just got to prepare yourself for the fall, and for the impact.
But, ultimately, it will be up to you to get yourself out of this hole. And it's going to be a tough climb, but I know you a little bit, Dennis, and I think you're strong enough to do it. Like I said, I'm still working on getting out of my own hole, but I'm not doing it with anybody's help, really. I've just trusted in the companionship of my dear friend Lyndsay, and I also attached Good Charlotte to the package (thankfully I found a band full of hope).
You may have to make some life changing decisions. For me, I'm moving across the country to solve my problems. I feel it's necessary, because I know I've got at least one friend waiting for me there. One friend who knows me, probably more than anybody else in this world knows me. That's one more friend than I have here. Anyways, my point is, you have to make the changes in your life, you can't just wait for things to get better, because they won't if you don't make them.
Hell, if you need a friend to help you, there's a shit load of people, including me, who are going to lend you a hand. I'm still thankful, to this day, to Karen for being such a big help to me. And all she did was chat with me one night while I was feeling down. So, Dennis, I don't use AIM anymore, but hell, if you need to you can contact me.
This may not be what you want to hear, but if you're going through what I did, I think you need to hear this. You've got to prepare yourself, and make sure you learn patience. It's not going to get better, yet, until you've hit rock bottom. But, that's not a bad thing. I honestly believe that I'm a better person today for hitting the bottom, and bouncing back up. You've just got to prepare yourself for the fall, and for the impact.
But, ultimately, it will be up to you to get yourself out of this hole. And it's going to be a tough climb, but I know you a little bit, Dennis, and I think you're strong enough to do it. Like I said, I'm still working on getting out of my own hole, but I'm not doing it with anybody's help, really. I've just trusted in the companionship of my dear friend Lyndsay, and I also attached Good Charlotte to the package (thankfully I found a band full of hope).
You may have to make some life changing decisions. For me, I'm moving across the country to solve my problems. I feel it's necessary, because I know I've got at least one friend waiting for me there. One friend who knows me, probably more than anybody else in this world knows me. That's one more friend than I have here. Anyways, my point is, you have to make the changes in your life, you can't just wait for things to get better, because they won't if you don't make them.
Hell, if you need a friend to help you, there's a shit load of people, including me, who are going to lend you a hand. I'm still thankful, to this day, to Karen for being such a big help to me. And all she did was chat with me one night while I was feeling down. So, Dennis, I don't use AIM anymore, but hell, if you need to you can contact me.
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