Lung Cancer
The cancer that has spread to my lungs has gotten so much worse in just the week that I have been home from Florida. Ever since I have returned from my trip, my life as done nothing but go straight downhill at an alarming pace. 100 mph straight down the fuckin hole. My whole body just hurts. I have shortness of breath, it hurts to breathe, there is severe pain in my chest, and I can barely walk due to the pain in my legs. My back is shot, and I am really starting to fear the worse. What if the same thing is happening to me? I blame my doctor and albany med for their stupid neglegence. You dont say to someone "oh now you have lung cancer, but overall I think your doing better, you can go home now", and just send them home. Where they have to wait two monthes to even hear back from you. Which I still havent heard back from them, not once. Lung cancer is not something you fool around with. You dont say that its in your lungs now, but dont worry, its not bad so we arent going to do anything. You get your fuckin ass busy and DO SOMETHING ABOUT !!!! Lung cancer is not a fucking JOKE!!! As soon as you even see the smallest, tiniest, microscopic sign of lung cancer, you jump right on that. You dont make the patient wait a few monthes until the cancer takes over their whole body, getting so bad that when they finally do attempt to treat it, they sit their all dumbfounded with stupid expressions on their faces wondering why the treatments didnt work. So I have had it with albany med. I am going to walk into that place with a shotgun, evacuate all the patients, and just blow away the people I deem necessary. So anyway I called my doctor out in boston and told him everything, and he said that that was a bunch of bullshit. So he wants me to come out to Boston to try this new Protocol...which means I have to go to Boston again for I dont know how long, and I dont even know when I leave. He said in a couple of weeks but I seriously dont think I can make that. I dont think I can make it two weeks. I need this done now! I am not going to die because of some stupid asshole doctors ignorance. This is BULLSHIT!!!!!! I refuse to get any operations. I will NOT go on an oxygen tank, I will NOT have a lung or a piece of a lung removed. I will NOT. I havent had one bit of good news in six years......it just keeps getting worse, and worse, and worse, and worse...over and over and over again. Nothing good has come of any of this. Yea people look up to me now, but for WHAT? I havent DONE anything. If I were this big time heroe that everyone makes me out to be, I wouldnt still be fighting this, only to have it get worse day by day, year by year. I would have been done already. What the hell am I supposed to do?