You stupid bitches should not be reading this. I dont know how you ever came across my journal, or who showed it to you (it was probably that damn bubby foster)...but you need to stop reading about all of my personal information, and then sharing it all with all of your 12 sleazy, nosey, gossiping sisters. Goddamn you nasty Fosters. You guys ( Read more... )

Yesterday was filled with soo many fun events, procedures, and activities...I just didnt know what to do with myself. I left home at quarter to four in the morning. Arrived at Dana-Farber Institute at 7:15am. Bloodwork was at seven thirty, which they took a whoooole lot. Directly after, I met my doctor for an appointment. Told him about everything ( Read more... )

The cancer that has spread to my lungs has gotten so much worse in just the week that I have been home from Florida. Ever since I have returned from my trip, my life as done nothing but go straight downhill at an alarming pace. 100 mph straight down the fuckin hole. My whole body just hurts. I have shortness of breath, it hurts to breathe, ( Read more... )

You know what darkness I see - everyday, every night ( Read more... )

Today's appointment did not go as bad as I dreaded it would. Although it wasnt really good, it wasnt the doomsday meeting that I was stressing and anxious that it was going to be. I was going in expecting to get the "this is it, this is the end, theres nothing else we can do" speech. Wasnt like that at all. And even though I now have lung cancer... ( Read more... )

I'm going to die. This is it, its all done, its finally over. I have finally hit that dead end on my road to recovery. The doctor called my mother at work and told her some very bad news about my scans I had done last week. Apparently the disease has gotten really really really bad. So bad that they wont even tell me over the phone, but only in ( Read more... )

Why is it that none of my friends ever, and I mean ever, invite me out to any parties or anything? I'm tired of always being the one inviting everyone to shindigs, and setting everything up, and never enjoying myself because im too worried about everyone else having a good time? I'm tired of always being left out and having to stay home, only to ( Read more... )

Lets get straight to the point. Its been awhile since I have updated anyone on my condition. So lets start with the bad....I finished Chemo treatments a month ago and as usual....three weeks after my last treatment the cancer was back like fucking clockwork. Does this everytime. I get weeks and weeks of chemo, only to be better for exactly three ( Read more... )

Wednesday, December 20, 2006 ( Read more... )

you are a lethal injection of pain. you envenomate me with your lies to accomodate your ever growing ego. to satisfy your lust. the need to overpower another but i refuse to budge. This soul remains firmly planted where my feet stand..and under no circumstance, no amount of energy or power will move me. I deny you and your desire to break me down.. ( Read more... )