fragmented thoughts...
Jess' 21st party was insane. Jim, John, and myself showed up an hour or so late. Despite the fact that there were a few people that i really did not want to see it was fun. There was sooo much alcohol that we barely even made a dent in it. honestly there was like $300 worth. We got kicked off campus at like 1am and some people came back to my place to continue the shindig. this is where things get weird.
at about 3ish, people who are outside smoking call me outside. there is an asian guy, he introduced himself as a realtor who managed my building. he wasnt like yelling at us or anything, he sat around and talked to us. he was a nice guy, somewhere in his early 30s. then we all go inside and sit back down in my appartment. i look over, and the 30 yo asian guy is sitting on my stool with a box of beer.
random
he stayed til like 5, then everyone but jim and john left and we went to bed.
i went home for a few days as we just got a dog and it was my dads vacation.
the dog: it is called Chase. it is... a dkljnshajbjrajkkjdjfofjdodjddjhlnjje. the name is hidden in there somewhere, but it is a dumb name. It is adorable, i wont lie. It is small, light light brown, almost yellow. it has a beard and long hair at the top of the head. Its legs are ong and its paws SO massive that it falls over them all the time.
I went kayaking in the marshes behind hampton beach. Its about 4ish miles to the main drag of hampton and the entire time we were going against the wind and tide so it was fairly brutal and i am sore, but it was awesome.
We started filming for the sixth episode of our little PA show, so that was fun. Scenes so far: Pregnant lady on the elevator.
Lucifer D Satan and his 10 oclock appointment
Hadley Who?
Skipping
On a serious, if not overly sentimental side:
[[[[[I am a very sentimental guy. While i was home, it hit me that i very soon i will be going home and not coming back. I know that i am only a $5.50 train ride away, and i feel comfortable enough with MOST of my friendships to not be worried about losing friends, but it still makes me sad. Just to not be around all the time, is i think the idea that gets me the most. I love the spontanaety of the city. I am having a hard time accepting the fact that nobody is going to randomly call me anymore and say "hey, what are you doing? come over." I have always hated cliques but i like my clique. i like who i am around my friends, i like having fun with my friends here. I will have fun with my friends at home, but when you hang out with the same people for 2 years, its obviously going to be hard to leave the city they live in.
All through high school and westfield and framingham, i struggled with my own image and how i saw myself. That sounds dramatic, but what i mean is this: i came to my own in boston and i did that with my boston friends. And i know the whole point of college is to do that, and then go out into the world knowing yourself.
I just get sad with change, particularly big changes. Change scares me. There is always that small and inevitably pointless fear that when you move, the people you are moving away from wont talk to you anymore, that you were replaceable. Or maybe, its that fear that nobody will really care, that nobody will really miss you. And thats a petty fear. I know that.
What has made up my experience at Suffolk University:
1. Working in the mailroom with lenny, and charlie, and carla
2. Going to shilias that one night probably more or less had by far the LARGEST impact on my life than anything else in a long time. I joke that alcohol is the reason i have friends, as much of the get togethers have had alcohol present, but it was the fact that i was actually open to going out and doing something different.
3. Finaly letting lenny play O.A.R. in the mail room
4. Going to Drew's 21st birthday party.
5. Going to parties even though at the time they made me nervous
6. Living over the bridge in Somerset and having only Nick, Drew, Will, and Keith as floormates
7. Going to that livejournal party on the first weekend which included Daniella, Arynn, and other people, including Arsen, the most awkward person ever.
8. The time i jumped over the railing at Shilias as it is the only story anyone ever tells about me.
9. Going to Larry's end of the year party. It just felt like a movie.
10. Working at the Sweet Factory and being trained by Jim
11. Will and Drew making up at my appartment and returning to normalcy
12. Smoking pot that one time and never again
13. New York
14. Jims place every weekend with Adina
15. Every thursday with Lenny and Charlie
16. Patty's 21st Birthday Party
I have met all but one of my close friends from Shillias, Drews 21st, the mailroom, and Patty's 21st. For a long time at wsc and fsc i had trouble letting myself make close friends. I felt i was betraying my old ones, that each friend i made would take me farther from home. But now, at the end of my 2 measely years at suffolk, i realize that home is a relative term. That home is where you are comfortable with yourself. That home changes as you change. And once somewhere becomes a home, it will never stop being a home. And the friends that i have now know me better than those i have from high school, and i consider my boston friends to have had the biggest impact on me and to be the best friends that i have.]]]]= i will miss everyone.
at about 3ish, people who are outside smoking call me outside. there is an asian guy, he introduced himself as a realtor who managed my building. he wasnt like yelling at us or anything, he sat around and talked to us. he was a nice guy, somewhere in his early 30s. then we all go inside and sit back down in my appartment. i look over, and the 30 yo asian guy is sitting on my stool with a box of beer.
random
he stayed til like 5, then everyone but jim and john left and we went to bed.
i went home for a few days as we just got a dog and it was my dads vacation.
the dog: it is called Chase. it is... a dkljnshajbjrajkkjdjfofjdodjddjhlnjje. the name is hidden in there somewhere, but it is a dumb name. It is adorable, i wont lie. It is small, light light brown, almost yellow. it has a beard and long hair at the top of the head. Its legs are ong and its paws SO massive that it falls over them all the time.
I went kayaking in the marshes behind hampton beach. Its about 4ish miles to the main drag of hampton and the entire time we were going against the wind and tide so it was fairly brutal and i am sore, but it was awesome.
We started filming for the sixth episode of our little PA show, so that was fun. Scenes so far: Pregnant lady on the elevator.
Lucifer D Satan and his 10 oclock appointment
Hadley Who?
Skipping
On a serious, if not overly sentimental side:
[[[[[I am a very sentimental guy. While i was home, it hit me that i very soon i will be going home and not coming back. I know that i am only a $5.50 train ride away, and i feel comfortable enough with MOST of my friendships to not be worried about losing friends, but it still makes me sad. Just to not be around all the time, is i think the idea that gets me the most. I love the spontanaety of the city. I am having a hard time accepting the fact that nobody is going to randomly call me anymore and say "hey, what are you doing? come over." I have always hated cliques but i like my clique. i like who i am around my friends, i like having fun with my friends here. I will have fun with my friends at home, but when you hang out with the same people for 2 years, its obviously going to be hard to leave the city they live in.
All through high school and westfield and framingham, i struggled with my own image and how i saw myself. That sounds dramatic, but what i mean is this: i came to my own in boston and i did that with my boston friends. And i know the whole point of college is to do that, and then go out into the world knowing yourself.
I just get sad with change, particularly big changes. Change scares me. There is always that small and inevitably pointless fear that when you move, the people you are moving away from wont talk to you anymore, that you were replaceable. Or maybe, its that fear that nobody will really care, that nobody will really miss you. And thats a petty fear. I know that.
What has made up my experience at Suffolk University:
1. Working in the mailroom with lenny, and charlie, and carla
2. Going to shilias that one night probably more or less had by far the LARGEST impact on my life than anything else in a long time. I joke that alcohol is the reason i have friends, as much of the get togethers have had alcohol present, but it was the fact that i was actually open to going out and doing something different.
3. Finaly letting lenny play O.A.R. in the mail room
4. Going to Drew's 21st birthday party.
5. Going to parties even though at the time they made me nervous
6. Living over the bridge in Somerset and having only Nick, Drew, Will, and Keith as floormates
7. Going to that livejournal party on the first weekend which included Daniella, Arynn, and other people, including Arsen, the most awkward person ever.
8. The time i jumped over the railing at Shilias as it is the only story anyone ever tells about me.
9. Going to Larry's end of the year party. It just felt like a movie.
10. Working at the Sweet Factory and being trained by Jim
11. Will and Drew making up at my appartment and returning to normalcy
12. Smoking pot that one time and never again
13. New York
14. Jims place every weekend with Adina
15. Every thursday with Lenny and Charlie
16. Patty's 21st Birthday Party
I have met all but one of my close friends from Shillias, Drews 21st, the mailroom, and Patty's 21st. For a long time at wsc and fsc i had trouble letting myself make close friends. I felt i was betraying my old ones, that each friend i made would take me farther from home. But now, at the end of my 2 measely years at suffolk, i realize that home is a relative term. That home is where you are comfortable with yourself. That home changes as you change. And once somewhere becomes a home, it will never stop being a home. And the friends that i have now know me better than those i have from high school, and i consider my boston friends to have had the biggest impact on me and to be the best friends that i have.]]]]= i will miss everyone.