I've been going to group therapy for my eating disorder and it's really opened my eyes and made me stop and really think. What does make me happy? Obviously, as comforting and safe as my eating disorder may feel, it doesn't make me happy. There are so many other things in my life that make me truly happy. Not this false sense of comfort that self-destructive behaviors give me. So, I'm making a list to remind myself of the things that are good in my life and do make me happy. I'll keep adding on to it for quite some time, maybe i'll never stop adding on to it.. as i get better and recover, i think the happy things will start piliing up more and more, and outweigh the bad things.
Things that make me happy:
Feeling the warmth of the sun on my skin
Being told "I love you" and feeling/knowing that it really is true
Beating a really hard part of a videogame after countless tries at it
Enjoying a glass of wine and some cheez-its with Mickey
Dressing up to do a photoshoot and modeling to the camera
Watching Sora and Yuni play together and run around the apartment
Dancing to various rap music in my undies [ooo baby, i like it raw]
Compacting to make smaller trash fit into bigger trash - an ocd thing I get enjoyment from
Taking a walk while listening to my mp3 player and just watching the world go by
Working on a really tough jigsaw puzzle
Inside jokes
Watching funny YouTube videos [e.g. Chris Crocker, SNL Jeopardy Skits and Will Ferrel spoofing Harry Carey]
Yoga
Making commentary/people watching with Mickey in my car - parked at grocery stores
Listening to the random guys talk on their headsets on XBox Live
Acting like a goof in public and not caring what people think of me
Putting a cute outfit together
Having s good thrift-shopping day - Finding really neat old things
Painting abstract art
Learning new things at college/school
Making/Sipping a cup of warm tea when I first wake up
Hearing rude but cute jokes from Mickey
Sora and Yuni (my two lovely cats) snuggling up to me with a loud purr when I'm relaxing in bed or curled up in a blanket
Receiving/giving massages
Have a good first conversation/meeting with someone new