Gotta get through this
Reflection time....what do I need to do?
I need to straighten the fuck out and fly right. Why I have a risked a life long friendship for a stupid night with idiots?
i want to get this right and do the right things, so I need to get back to being and living as if steve were here with me. I don't have to be a homebody against my own will, but I need to be condusive to my relationship and start hanging out with healthier people or else no one at all. I need to chill and perhaps just start coming home to amanda again and make her my number one hang out buddy while I'm away from steve. She is always the healthy option. *sigh* I am sooo sorry for last night. From now on though I want to be better and get back on track...no more need for this crazy shit. Perhaps he may not want to talk for a lil while but whether we talk or not for the next week or take a break...I'm gonna start being better. I want this....I want it all the way and there is no more half assing and getting away with it. We have decided that this is what we want so I shouldn't be risking it.
I need to straighten the fuck out and fly right. Why I have a risked a life long friendship for a stupid night with idiots?
i want to get this right and do the right things, so I need to get back to being and living as if steve were here with me. I don't have to be a homebody against my own will, but I need to be condusive to my relationship and start hanging out with healthier people or else no one at all. I need to chill and perhaps just start coming home to amanda again and make her my number one hang out buddy while I'm away from steve. She is always the healthy option. *sigh* I am sooo sorry for last night. From now on though I want to be better and get back on track...no more need for this crazy shit. Perhaps he may not want to talk for a lil while but whether we talk or not for the next week or take a break...I'm gonna start being better. I want this....I want it all the way and there is no more half assing and getting away with it. We have decided that this is what we want so I shouldn't be risking it.