Friends.
I feel like I've been losing a lot of friends lately, or even just having a lot of conflicts with the ones I have. At school, I was really excited to finally live with people that I enjoy living with, two people who I considered some of my best friends at Berkeley. And now, it seems that I'm in a living situation where nobody really gets along with anyone. I recently lost my best friend for about 6 years because she's selfish, self-absorbed, unappreciative, and unreliable. Also, another friend was lost because he seems to care a lot more about making money and making new friends, rather than tending to his old friends, even respecting their opinions. I do not know what exactly is the deal with all this friend trouble. It must be something that I did wrong, according to my mother's recently developed Buddhist ideals. Who knows. Needless to say, I am disappointed in myself, as well as others. Myself, for being foolish, for perhaps causing conflict, for not being there for others. And others, themselves, for being selfish, for the most part, and not considering others' needs.
As of this point, there is nothing I can do, however. Even half way across the world from the States, problems still arise. Lose some friends, gain new ones. Sounds good, eh?
As of this point, there is nothing I can do, however. Even half way across the world from the States, problems still arise. Lose some friends, gain new ones. Sounds good, eh?