where do I even begin
So much has happened since my last update. Its kind of crazy to think about. Work is going really well. Lately, that's been my saving grace/. I lose myself in the food. It's therapy of some sort. Starting to work out again is nice also. I was really slacking on that. Getting back on track is key.
When Lesley broke up with me a month ago it was like I was run over by a bus. This came out of nowhere. I mean really nowhere. Two days before that we were doing a private dinner for some rich family and things were fine. I guess she was so unhappy with other aspects of her life she felt like she was "dragging me down" which is a real bummer. She also did not see a future with someone who works my hours. She felt like she was single for 5 days a week and needed more consistency from someone she wanted to be with. She works days and I work nights, sometimes very late. I understand how she felt, but this is a two way street where she was so into the perks of my job, but hated my schedule. Kind of selfish actually. She did not even want me to come over after I got off work, even to stay with her. I think she's just unhappy about a lot of things that she needs to sort out. She has a new job now, so that might help...but she runs away from relationships (only the good ones) and is used to dating assholes.I swear that is Asinine, I still don't understand why some women do that.
But I do miss her. we only saw each other a few days a week, but when we did it was so fun. It was easy being with her, we got along really well. Our sundays were so much fun.
Im over it now, but still kind of sad. I have a feeling this is the first of many relationships which will end because of my career choice. But I will never change what I do for anyone anymore. I almost considered changing gigs to work a more normal schedule so we could spend more time together, but in the long run I am glad I did not. Love is a two way street, and she tried to block it.
When Lesley broke up with me a month ago it was like I was run over by a bus. This came out of nowhere. I mean really nowhere. Two days before that we were doing a private dinner for some rich family and things were fine. I guess she was so unhappy with other aspects of her life she felt like she was "dragging me down" which is a real bummer. She also did not see a future with someone who works my hours. She felt like she was single for 5 days a week and needed more consistency from someone she wanted to be with. She works days and I work nights, sometimes very late. I understand how she felt, but this is a two way street where she was so into the perks of my job, but hated my schedule. Kind of selfish actually. She did not even want me to come over after I got off work, even to stay with her. I think she's just unhappy about a lot of things that she needs to sort out. She has a new job now, so that might help...but she runs away from relationships (only the good ones) and is used to dating assholes.I swear that is Asinine, I still don't understand why some women do that.
But I do miss her. we only saw each other a few days a week, but when we did it was so fun. It was easy being with her, we got along really well. Our sundays were so much fun.
Im over it now, but still kind of sad. I have a feeling this is the first of many relationships which will end because of my career choice. But I will never change what I do for anyone anymore. I almost considered changing gigs to work a more normal schedule so we could spend more time together, but in the long run I am glad I did not. Love is a two way street, and she tried to block it.