fatigue
dear journal,
my recuperation is going relatively well. i find myself (besides having diarrhea and other stomach issues) very fatigued and very thirsty. i'm not sure why i'm so thirsty, but i am and it's really annoying. the fatigue is bad too. i'm supposed to return to work on monday with my trusty cane. somehow i'm going to have to find the energy to put in a full day's work.
i hate that someone else is doing my job now and i'm doing someone else's job who left on maternity leave. these past two weeks, someone else has been "subbing for the sub" until i get back on monday. ridiculous. anyway, i have a feeling christy (the one who's out on leave) will not be returning, so that's potentially good news for me i guess. at least there's space for me there.
i asked arthur about the weird silence hanging around between us and he first said he was just tired. then he said he was stressed about work. then he said he hasn't been feeling that great but he didn't want to complain about it because of what i was going through. so maybe it's a combination of all those things, but if he's not feeling well i wish he would tell me. he also said he was pretty annoyed about the apartment thing, which i already knew. he said he feels like it's a pointless waste of time to go looking with me because i'm never going to agree on anything and i'll never like anything. that kind of hurt but i know it's true. i have to be more realistic here. i guess he really liked one of the places we saw last week (i think it was last week?) and i shot it down. so last night i said let's see if it's still available and we'll take a second look, so we looked it up and it was gone already :( now i feel really bad. i think the next place he likes i'll just agree to it if it meets my basic criteria: good location, big elevator, easy laundry access. that's all i really need. doorman would be nice. so would a view and open kitchen with an island, crown molding, wainscoting, river rock shower and stainless steel appliances. but i digress.
on that note, i am going to bed now to try and get some extra sleep. maybe it will help with my daytime fatigue.
my recuperation is going relatively well. i find myself (besides having diarrhea and other stomach issues) very fatigued and very thirsty. i'm not sure why i'm so thirsty, but i am and it's really annoying. the fatigue is bad too. i'm supposed to return to work on monday with my trusty cane. somehow i'm going to have to find the energy to put in a full day's work.
i hate that someone else is doing my job now and i'm doing someone else's job who left on maternity leave. these past two weeks, someone else has been "subbing for the sub" until i get back on monday. ridiculous. anyway, i have a feeling christy (the one who's out on leave) will not be returning, so that's potentially good news for me i guess. at least there's space for me there.
i asked arthur about the weird silence hanging around between us and he first said he was just tired. then he said he was stressed about work. then he said he hasn't been feeling that great but he didn't want to complain about it because of what i was going through. so maybe it's a combination of all those things, but if he's not feeling well i wish he would tell me. he also said he was pretty annoyed about the apartment thing, which i already knew. he said he feels like it's a pointless waste of time to go looking with me because i'm never going to agree on anything and i'll never like anything. that kind of hurt but i know it's true. i have to be more realistic here. i guess he really liked one of the places we saw last week (i think it was last week?) and i shot it down. so last night i said let's see if it's still available and we'll take a second look, so we looked it up and it was gone already :( now i feel really bad. i think the next place he likes i'll just agree to it if it meets my basic criteria: good location, big elevator, easy laundry access. that's all i really need. doorman would be nice. so would a view and open kitchen with an island, crown molding, wainscoting, river rock shower and stainless steel appliances. but i digress.
on that note, i am going to bed now to try and get some extra sleep. maybe it will help with my daytime fatigue.