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alright so im just sitting here in my room cuz im not allowed to fall asleep. i have this big ol test that has to be done on me tomorrow. they call it an eeg (hehe almost looks like egg) which is basically a test that looks at electrical activity in a persons brain. and i need this test to see if i am able to be taken off of my medications for my epilepsy because i havent had a seizure in about 2 yrs. so im all stoked that i am actually gonna see if i dont have to take my meds anymore and see if i dont have any seizures anymore. i know i still have side effects from things, like if i miss 2 pills in a row, my attention span drops like no other and i cant seem to stay on task. which is prolly my add coming back. but there is prolly sumthin i can do about it thought. im hopin that i will be able to get off the meds all together but at the same time im dreading the worst like the fact that i will never be able to get off them, no matter what happens. but i have to keep my head up high. and not let it get to me if im never gonna be able to get off the meds. unlike other things that have been going down for the past month. like sumhow my x and i are talking again but thats cuz of weird circumstances. like she really wanted to learn how to make out. and she shocked me when she went all out the other day when i was at her place. dunno y i went there, i just did. but like she put all her fears aside and decided to make out with me. she turned around and told me that she always wanted to have sex but was scared to do it. i know everyone went throught that situation were you scared out of ur pants over the first time u had sex, but after it happened, it wasnt a big deal. shes goin throught that but she really wants to do it. which got me kinda curious on why she thinks like that. and she also tells me that shes always wanted to do it with me. so yea, that throws me into a big ass loop. so yea, theres that part of the situation. then other part is that her dad basically hates my guts cuz of the fights her and i had. and i know i have said some pretty harsh words, but it always happens with me when it comes to break ups and the break ups dont go all peachy. like he doesnt want a phone call to or from me on the house phone or her cell phone, no text messages, emails, and me showing up at the apartments. and i still have a feeling that she still wants to move out and move in with me, i think. but by that time i could have a friend from la habra move in with me or im livin with the girl im dating at the time. anything could happen in that situation. now theres sumthin new happenin in my dating life. one of my friends that i have known for about a year now, she has told me that she had broken up with her bf, and we both know that we like each other and she knows that i broke up with my x. so we agreed that we would let each other know when we are ready to date again and we were hopin that we would date each other. we are cool with each other and all, the only problem i see is that we sometimes have those ackward silence moments that everyone hates and we wanna say sumthin but cant and some of the things that i want to say, i think is inappropriate, even thought most of the time they arnt, but thats just me.