confession...
so.. there is this guy, an older guy, that i've had a giant crush on since about the age of 12. since my senior year there have been little moments of flirting between us but lately they've been more frequent, more "grown up" and now there is noticable sexual tension between us....
as gross as it may sound i really wish he would just ask me out. one day we had a discussion about someone telling him that he should ask me out, but he said the only reason he hesitates is because my dad is one of his co-workers.... well.. i talked to my dad about it, because lately this "crush" has been developing into actually feelings... so.. i asked my dad what he thought about us going out sometime and the ONLY thing he warned me about was not to date a cop.. not that this guys is 14 yrs older than me..but just to be careful about dating a cop... lol..
i see him about 1-2 times a week when i stop in to say hi to him @ work.. & lately since i've been working out a lot a see him at the gym & we stop & talk for a while.. the past few times i've seen him there i've had other boys w/ me.. but tonight when i saw him he asked "so where is the anturage (or however you spell it)?"... and when i told him that i was there by myself a big smile came across his face... =0)
i know it sounds gross.. but ive always been the type of person to get along really well w/ adults.. i mean i have plenty of my friends.. around my age.. but usually i do get along w/ older people.. so why should it be any different when it comes to the guy department?
i've even been having dreams lately about us just admitting to eachother the fact that we are attracted to one another.. i think in reality if it actually happened i really wouldnt have any objections... the way i look @ it is that i've dated way too many little boys.. & everyone's been telling me that i need to find myself a man... & i have....