Almost finished...
I am happy to finally say that I'm in my final week of classes for the semester. I'm almost finished with my portfolio--which will either make or break my chances of becoming a student teacher in the fall. I'm both relieved and slightly awed that I've made it this far. I never thought I would. There are moments, like tonight, that I'm still not sure that I'm working towards the right goal. I see the light, yes, but it is dim, and tends to flicker--frequently. How does one know that they are doing the right thing? Some say that you just know--that there is that warm fuzzy feeling. I don't have that feeling... this doesn't feel right, it doesn't feel wrong. I just feel numb, and that scares me. I'm doubting my ability: to teach, to nurture, to endure the trials that life will continue to throw my way.
One special friend told me that he has faith that I can do it, that I can teach, that I can survive, that I can DO something with my life. He believes that I have a purpose, and that alone, may be enough to keep me going, at least for the rest of this semester. He told me that "we are who and what we choose". I think that's finally starting to sink in. Problem is, I'm not quite sure yet, who or what I want to be. The one thing that I am sure of, now, is that I can't give up. I won't give up. I'm too close, and I know that I've got at least one person who really and truly cares about me, and hopes to see me succeed. He knows who he is, and I hope that he knows that I truly love and care about him, and that I am forever indebted to him for his ongoing service and the love and protection that he continuously sends my way. Thank you.
One special friend told me that he has faith that I can do it, that I can teach, that I can survive, that I can DO something with my life. He believes that I have a purpose, and that alone, may be enough to keep me going, at least for the rest of this semester. He told me that "we are who and what we choose". I think that's finally starting to sink in. Problem is, I'm not quite sure yet, who or what I want to be. The one thing that I am sure of, now, is that I can't give up. I won't give up. I'm too close, and I know that I've got at least one person who really and truly cares about me, and hopes to see me succeed. He knows who he is, and I hope that he knows that I truly love and care about him, and that I am forever indebted to him for his ongoing service and the love and protection that he continuously sends my way. Thank you.