selfish
So yes, it has become evident that one cannot ever hope to move things further if you are completely selfless. Accordingly, there is so much time spent getting to know the other person that they fail to look deeper within you, and as a result, it does not work...
This is proven by the fact that anyone with whom I have ever spent time talking about my dreams and desires and projects for architecture and thoughts, well, they appreciate me so much more than people to whom I only listen, considering they tend to take me for granted.
It is impossible to continue being happy for everyone else at this moment, with the fact that there is something missing from myself, and if I do not take the time to try and discover it, then no matter how much good there is in my life (which, trust, there is plenty of, I don't mean to make it appear as if I am wallowing in my own self pity), I will never be able to see it for what it all is...And I could dance around the subject and pretend that it is something else, but the metaphor is here, as is the irony...
Every single person, no matter who they are, what they are physically or mentally, they all are the same. They have the same desires and needs and hopes and dreams (more or less), and as a result, stop sitting down and blindly saying and acting just because one person did, and all of a sudden everyone else is as well because there is no apparent room for individual thought. Do you like care? Do you like a decent conversation with someone? Do you want to be noticed? Do you want to be happy? Treat others the way you want to be treated...and make sure you look at yourself from not only your own perspective, but also one from others' points of view...I cannot guarantee you will always like what you see...Or, you may see that you are something greater than you could ever know, and you really do have an effect in what could be the simplest way, on someone else's life...
Something else I noticed in conversation is that it is typical for a person responding to a question to never ask the same question back. If you think about what is going through your head at the moment you ask someone something, is it not something you would like for yourself to share upon being asked?
I can feel my chest pounding from pressure and lack of sleep, and also from the rush of adrenaline that accompanies all of the anger, anxiety, emotion, fear, desire, confusion, torment, enthusiasm, passion, and sadness I experience...
If you've taken anything from this, please let it be that no one (even those that bring it upon themselves) deserves to be treated any way other than what you would like, and in the end, being selfless is going to kill me...
ever have a vivid dream?
I have one...and I see it with my eyes open every day...
This is proven by the fact that anyone with whom I have ever spent time talking about my dreams and desires and projects for architecture and thoughts, well, they appreciate me so much more than people to whom I only listen, considering they tend to take me for granted.
It is impossible to continue being happy for everyone else at this moment, with the fact that there is something missing from myself, and if I do not take the time to try and discover it, then no matter how much good there is in my life (which, trust, there is plenty of, I don't mean to make it appear as if I am wallowing in my own self pity), I will never be able to see it for what it all is...And I could dance around the subject and pretend that it is something else, but the metaphor is here, as is the irony...
Every single person, no matter who they are, what they are physically or mentally, they all are the same. They have the same desires and needs and hopes and dreams (more or less), and as a result, stop sitting down and blindly saying and acting just because one person did, and all of a sudden everyone else is as well because there is no apparent room for individual thought. Do you like care? Do you like a decent conversation with someone? Do you want to be noticed? Do you want to be happy? Treat others the way you want to be treated...and make sure you look at yourself from not only your own perspective, but also one from others' points of view...I cannot guarantee you will always like what you see...Or, you may see that you are something greater than you could ever know, and you really do have an effect in what could be the simplest way, on someone else's life...
Something else I noticed in conversation is that it is typical for a person responding to a question to never ask the same question back. If you think about what is going through your head at the moment you ask someone something, is it not something you would like for yourself to share upon being asked?
I can feel my chest pounding from pressure and lack of sleep, and also from the rush of adrenaline that accompanies all of the anger, anxiety, emotion, fear, desire, confusion, torment, enthusiasm, passion, and sadness I experience...
If you've taken anything from this, please let it be that no one (even those that bring it upon themselves) deserves to be treated any way other than what you would like, and in the end, being selfless is going to kill me...
ever have a vivid dream?
I have one...and I see it with my eyes open every day...