F*#K!!!!!!
FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK!
Here is the situation. I have not been on a vacation at all in two years. I have spent the past 4 weeks dealing with a baby every day, so although I haven't been at work, it has been far from a vacation. However, this weekend, my mom offered to take Deacon to my aunt's house in Virginia for the entire weekend. So, Jovan and I started talking about possibly going away for the weekend like a mini-vacation since I have to start back at work monday. I got all excited and spent all day looking up deals on hotels and whatnot, trying to figure out what we could do with our limited budgets. Jovan even took off on friday so we could leave early in the day.... I started getting depressed when I realized the little amount of money I'm going to have, although Jovan was like, don't worry, we'll figure something out. But just now we were talking and he's like, "Well, I have to meet with contractors on saturday to get stuff done at the house, so I won't be able to go anywhere anyway." WHAT THE FUCK!?! Why the hell didn't you tell me that before I got my hopes up and started really planning to do something!? That's like putting candy in front of a child who has been denied it for a year and then snatching it away. So of course, I'm upset. His reaction to me being upset? "There's nothing I can do so you're just going to have to get over it." FUCK HIM. I am soooo pissed right now. It's not so much the not going away thing, I mean, granted that does make me angry and it really sucks because I definetly had my hopes up. But the fact that he's treating me like shit. Seriously, I don't know how much more of this rollercoaster I can handle. One day he loves me more than anything, the next he doesn't care how he makes me feel or how he talks to me.
Here is the situation. I have not been on a vacation at all in two years. I have spent the past 4 weeks dealing with a baby every day, so although I haven't been at work, it has been far from a vacation. However, this weekend, my mom offered to take Deacon to my aunt's house in Virginia for the entire weekend. So, Jovan and I started talking about possibly going away for the weekend like a mini-vacation since I have to start back at work monday. I got all excited and spent all day looking up deals on hotels and whatnot, trying to figure out what we could do with our limited budgets. Jovan even took off on friday so we could leave early in the day.... I started getting depressed when I realized the little amount of money I'm going to have, although Jovan was like, don't worry, we'll figure something out. But just now we were talking and he's like, "Well, I have to meet with contractors on saturday to get stuff done at the house, so I won't be able to go anywhere anyway." WHAT THE FUCK!?! Why the hell didn't you tell me that before I got my hopes up and started really planning to do something!? That's like putting candy in front of a child who has been denied it for a year and then snatching it away. So of course, I'm upset. His reaction to me being upset? "There's nothing I can do so you're just going to have to get over it." FUCK HIM. I am soooo pissed right now. It's not so much the not going away thing, I mean, granted that does make me angry and it really sucks because I definetly had my hopes up. But the fact that he's treating me like shit. Seriously, I don't know how much more of this rollercoaster I can handle. One day he loves me more than anything, the next he doesn't care how he makes me feel or how he talks to me.