Sleepless nights...

[tluv707]

I haven't been feeling so good, my anxiety is getting worse, my sleep apnea is also getting worse, too...and to make matters even more worse as far as my health...I can't even sleep in my own piece of shyt bed...lately, I've been sleeping on the couch, but not laying down, sitting upright...and it seems like I sleep a whole lot better that way then I do laying down, and I haven't been sleeping at night either...the insomnia is by choice, and I sleep damn near in the daytime, on the couch, for less than 5 hours...I'm too afraid to sleep at night...hell, I'm too afraid to sleep, period!! But good news, I got an appointment to see a FEMALE doctor next Wednesday, for a fuuuuuuuul physcial, so for now, I'm trying to hang...I want to be able to see my 25th birthday...but I'm starting to have strange feelings about my lifespan, and it's scaring the shyt out of me!!!

What I need to do is start praying, pray that I'll be ok...and that my health will be up to par...pray that I'll live to see my 25th and many years to come!! I'm just too scared right about now...I need to calm my ass down!!

Much Luv