I don't know why I'm bothering looking through all of these job listings because apparently anyone without a bachelor's degree is completely unhireable, even for jobs that require very little brain power or special skills ( Read more... )

I'm sure you're all very sick of me talking about oh woe is me, I had to drop out of college and now I owe tons of money, whatever I shall do, I suck at most things and I hate my job that I make barely any money at, boo hoo hoo -- hell, I'm sick of THINKING about it, to be honest. I'm sick of making excuses for myself... even if it's not really " ( Read more... )

I hate when you wake up feeling horribly depressed and like you're going to cry any second and you just want to scream and stay in bed for the rest of your life. Dammit, I thought sleep was supposed to refresh you. :(((((

(also, I hate going to work in the morning)

I wish I was going back to SVA next month. I want to live in the dorms again. I want to be in New York City every day and I want to be going to classes and I want to see different people who will become the same people after a while, and... fuck, I just miss it. :/

I got basically four hours worth of sleep last night... I was up for hours just worrying about a ton of shit. About my job, what'll happen to me if I lose it, what I'm gonna do if I still can't get my Smart Options loan, what I'm gonna do if I do get the loan and it's a lot of money per month, how I can't possibly stay at SVA past second year ( Read more... )

You know, it's been quite a while since I've really disliked my body. I suppose I was due for another falcon punch to the self-esteem... although this is just kinda coming out of nowhere. And it sucks because it's not like I can just exercise and eat right and look better; this is the shape of my body and there is nothing I can do about it. Even ( Read more... )

THINGS WRONG WITH THIS WEEK SO FAR ( Read more... )

My cold has gotten incredibly worse, which fucking sucks because I felt fine on Friday. My nose is stuffy and I'm coughing and my head feels like Silly Putty and even Nyquil couldn't get me to sleep for more than a couple hours. Fuck my life...

You guys... I have completely lost my ability to write anything. Or, at least, the ability to write anything in script format. I tried writing my original idea -- couldn't do it. Tried adapting one of my fics for the screen -- couldn't do that either. I keep trying to think of ideas, and I think of them, but I just can't write anymore. I have no ( Read more... )

Just when my other one is basically gone, a new, huge one pops up on my upper lip! I'm so fucking annoyed I can't even tell you. At least on my lower lip it wasn't as noticeable, but this new one is RIGHT FUCKING THERE for the entire world to see. And not only is it ugly and gross, it hurts. Gaaaaah! I hate my life ( Read more... )