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He was right. You can't do work when you are "depressed".
It's been an up and down kind of week. Unfortunately the downs have been way down and the week has only begun.
I don't know what the fuck I want anymore. I'm in this weird limbo--purgatory I guess. Not quite heaven, not quite hell, and certainly not enough. I'm not where I'm supposed to be yet. Everyone seems relatively happy and I feel like I'm falling apart.
Too many things have been "going wrong". I'm not planning enough. I'm not being me. I'm not thinking. I was never impulsive, and I always knew right from wrong. What the hell am I doing?
he's beautiful again.
I don't give a shit that this means nothing to anyone but me.
I miss her so fucking much it hurts. Why the hell don't you have a phone?!!? Do you know how much I NEED you?
I just want to sleep, and live simply. Enjoy the sweet sunshine and good times. I have too much responsibility and commitments for this time of year. It's too beautiful and too new for it to be wasted on finals, studying, papers, and research.
I'm kind of sad I won't be going to bamboozle this year.
I don't know why I've been relying on using this so much recently. Weird.
I need the car, and freedom. and the beach. and an entirely good day.
It's been an up and down kind of week. Unfortunately the downs have been way down and the week has only begun.
I don't know what the fuck I want anymore. I'm in this weird limbo--purgatory I guess. Not quite heaven, not quite hell, and certainly not enough. I'm not where I'm supposed to be yet. Everyone seems relatively happy and I feel like I'm falling apart.
Too many things have been "going wrong". I'm not planning enough. I'm not being me. I'm not thinking. I was never impulsive, and I always knew right from wrong. What the hell am I doing?
he's beautiful again.
I don't give a shit that this means nothing to anyone but me.
I miss her so fucking much it hurts. Why the hell don't you have a phone?!!? Do you know how much I NEED you?
I just want to sleep, and live simply. Enjoy the sweet sunshine and good times. I have too much responsibility and commitments for this time of year. It's too beautiful and too new for it to be wasted on finals, studying, papers, and research.
I'm kind of sad I won't be going to bamboozle this year.
I don't know why I've been relying on using this so much recently. Weird.
I need the car, and freedom. and the beach. and an entirely good day.