it's going to be one of those nights.
i can just feel it. I'm not going to be able to sleep at all. I'm going to try and do everything possible so that I can manage to fall asleep, but its just not going to work out like that.
I can't believe I'm updating twice in one day, thats a first in a loooong time.
I'm a creep/ cracked out. I need to just learn how to be a normal human being. too bad I missed that boat 15 years ago.
152 days until my 21st birthday. is it bad that I'm obsessed with turning 21? oh well.
i've been having the most vivid dreams recently. I had one where I had a party for my residents at my house, and it was a ballin' ass time, so i'm thinking about doing it. paul wore my purple sweater in it. wtf and georgia peed behind the old red chair we used to have in the family room. i think my brain is trying to tell me something, probably that i'm crazy.
i also had a dream that chelsea and zak were meditating upside down floating in the UC. i freaked the fuck out, and sayed comforted me. but it wasn't working then my old boss liz started to "swim" on the ground of the UC and I joined her and it really felt like I was swimming. I took this to mean that I need to spend less time at work, and more time doing something else. Zak said it probably meant that I'm so bored of the mundane that my subconcious had to compensate by making the ordinary extraordinary in my dream. that makes sense.
i'm a loser. i'm going to the gym tomorrow. i swear i'll keep going this week. please self, keep your promise.
internal dialoges are my favorite.
i can't spell very well, and my grammar is probably for shit. yay i'm going places. i want to write music, and feel creative again.
i'm having an existential crisis that has lasted 3 days so far...lets see how far it goes.
I can't believe I'm updating twice in one day, thats a first in a loooong time.
I'm a creep/ cracked out. I need to just learn how to be a normal human being. too bad I missed that boat 15 years ago.
152 days until my 21st birthday. is it bad that I'm obsessed with turning 21? oh well.
i've been having the most vivid dreams recently. I had one where I had a party for my residents at my house, and it was a ballin' ass time, so i'm thinking about doing it. paul wore my purple sweater in it. wtf and georgia peed behind the old red chair we used to have in the family room. i think my brain is trying to tell me something, probably that i'm crazy.
i also had a dream that chelsea and zak were meditating upside down floating in the UC. i freaked the fuck out, and sayed comforted me. but it wasn't working then my old boss liz started to "swim" on the ground of the UC and I joined her and it really felt like I was swimming. I took this to mean that I need to spend less time at work, and more time doing something else. Zak said it probably meant that I'm so bored of the mundane that my subconcious had to compensate by making the ordinary extraordinary in my dream. that makes sense.
i'm a loser. i'm going to the gym tomorrow. i swear i'll keep going this week. please self, keep your promise.
internal dialoges are my favorite.
i can't spell very well, and my grammar is probably for shit. yay i'm going places. i want to write music, and feel creative again.
i'm having an existential crisis that has lasted 3 days so far...lets see how far it goes.