Is This What Heartbreak Feels Like?
Hello,
I don't have much to say except for the fact that I really can't place what I'm feeling now.
I think it's a mix of disbelief, anger, frustration, confusion and curiosity. If you didn't mean all the things that you said then why did you say it? what was the point of lying all this time. Sure it was creepy but it was also kind of flattering. I'm kind of glad that I at least got to experience something like that at least once in my life. It actually made me feel better about myself. It made me feel wanted. But now...the insecurities are flooding back all over again and I have you to thank. It wasn't that I was expecting anything out of it. It was for the very simple fact that it happened in the first place that gave me a change in perspective and attitude but I never expected something like this to be able to dampen it and to affect me so much. I guess deep down maybe it wasn't an illusion after all. Or maybe even if you can't have me, I just want you to want me. I may just be a biatch that way. Still, this is a pathway that I'm not willing to go down twice. There was no conclusion, no resolution. & I guess this is your way of ending things. Then so be it, do it clean, once and for all, end it well unlike all the other things that you do with your life. Don't drag me into your incapability, let me go.
I don't have much to say except for the fact that I really can't place what I'm feeling now.
I think it's a mix of disbelief, anger, frustration, confusion and curiosity. If you didn't mean all the things that you said then why did you say it? what was the point of lying all this time. Sure it was creepy but it was also kind of flattering. I'm kind of glad that I at least got to experience something like that at least once in my life. It actually made me feel better about myself. It made me feel wanted. But now...the insecurities are flooding back all over again and I have you to thank. It wasn't that I was expecting anything out of it. It was for the very simple fact that it happened in the first place that gave me a change in perspective and attitude but I never expected something like this to be able to dampen it and to affect me so much. I guess deep down maybe it wasn't an illusion after all. Or maybe even if you can't have me, I just want you to want me. I may just be a biatch that way. Still, this is a pathway that I'm not willing to go down twice. There was no conclusion, no resolution. & I guess this is your way of ending things. Then so be it, do it clean, once and for all, end it well unlike all the other things that you do with your life. Don't drag me into your incapability, let me go.