Now a Glorious War Draws to a Close, the Yellow Wind Blows...and I Have to Know...
Somehow, these last few days, I've been able to sleep just the right amount. I blame going out to Kristie and Danara's. Damn them and their good influence...
I have to say, though. I'm worried Cindy thinks I'm indestructible. 45 hours this week, 38 scheduled (totally subject to change if some douche decides they can't handle what their given...) next week with split days off and a closing shift (3-10) the day before an early morning shift (6am-2pm) I've done it before, but seriously. Not invincible. But I'll do it, because I finally set my budget in stone and figured $400 per paycheck and everything works out, thankfully. That's a huge stress off my shoulders. Ideally, I'll have a phone of my own in September or October. It depends on when Kristie and Danara can afford it. I think that will do leaps and bounds with staying in touch with people.
On that note, can I just say how annoying it is when you leave messages or emails or IMs for people and they decide you're not worth the effort of responding? Well, I suppose something could be going on and so it's difficult to talk. And I'm one to talk, I guess. I still haven't told the majority of people I'm not coming back downstate, but I wonder who deserves to know, you know? I mean, there are a handful of people who do know. I wonder if anyone is waiting for me to tell them? I wonder who, if anyone, will care? That's not fair. There are people who care, and I know that and appreciate it. The good news is that I'm not as severely dependent on people as I used to be. *cue wave of tired-ness* Jebus, I gotta type faster, lol. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what will happen.
I'm happy with where I'm at right now. Yes, some things could be better, but I won't ignore what I've already got. I have the support of people whose opinions I trust without a second thought. I'm well on my way to being financially independent of my parents (granted, it's still a year in the making, but it's within sight, which is really what matters.) I have family, I have friends, I have a job. What more can I ask for? Nothing that I can't give myself, that's for sure.
Hohum. I don't enjoy having to tie up loose ends, especially when it's not my responsibility to do so, but taking an active approach to life seems to be the pattern I'm forming, and I'm rather enjoying it.
But loose ends can wait. Well deserved rest can come now. Ciao.
I have to say, though. I'm worried Cindy thinks I'm indestructible. 45 hours this week, 38 scheduled (totally subject to change if some douche decides they can't handle what their given...) next week with split days off and a closing shift (3-10) the day before an early morning shift (6am-2pm) I've done it before, but seriously. Not invincible. But I'll do it, because I finally set my budget in stone and figured $400 per paycheck and everything works out, thankfully. That's a huge stress off my shoulders. Ideally, I'll have a phone of my own in September or October. It depends on when Kristie and Danara can afford it. I think that will do leaps and bounds with staying in touch with people.
On that note, can I just say how annoying it is when you leave messages or emails or IMs for people and they decide you're not worth the effort of responding? Well, I suppose something could be going on and so it's difficult to talk. And I'm one to talk, I guess. I still haven't told the majority of people I'm not coming back downstate, but I wonder who deserves to know, you know? I mean, there are a handful of people who do know. I wonder if anyone is waiting for me to tell them? I wonder who, if anyone, will care? That's not fair. There are people who care, and I know that and appreciate it. The good news is that I'm not as severely dependent on people as I used to be. *cue wave of tired-ness* Jebus, I gotta type faster, lol. I guess we'll just have to wait and see what will happen.
I'm happy with where I'm at right now. Yes, some things could be better, but I won't ignore what I've already got. I have the support of people whose opinions I trust without a second thought. I'm well on my way to being financially independent of my parents (granted, it's still a year in the making, but it's within sight, which is really what matters.) I have family, I have friends, I have a job. What more can I ask for? Nothing that I can't give myself, that's for sure.
Hohum. I don't enjoy having to tie up loose ends, especially when it's not my responsibility to do so, but taking an active approach to life seems to be the pattern I'm forming, and I'm rather enjoying it.
But loose ends can wait. Well deserved rest can come now. Ciao.