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I don't think that things will ever be the same with me and him again. I love him to death but I don't think that he feels the same way, I can see it in his eyes. How could we get like this? In the beginning things were so great, we were so in love with each other. We still love each other, but we're not in love. It makes me sad because I AM in love with him. I keep telling myself to find someone else and so have all of my friends but I can't. I can't see myself connecting with anyone the way I did with him. I know his entire family and he knows mine. I'm scared to do this again, and I'm scared to have my heartbroken. But I can't stay with him through all this because it just makes me sad because deep down, I know that things will never be the same. I thought that he was going to ask me to marry him, a few little things just led me to that idea but it turned out different and thats not what he was going to ask me. I was really upset because I thought that he finally knew what he wanted but I guess not. I guess it's good in a way because our marriage would end up in divorce due to the fact that he is just not in love with me and i'm not the one for him. But if we are not meant for each other, why is it so hard to let each other go?? Why does God make this so hard??
Anyway, this huricane thing turns out to be more serious than i was thinking. It's going to do a lot of damage. I just pray that the power does not go out for 3 weeks. That would suck ass.
Anyway, this huricane thing turns out to be more serious than i was thinking. It's going to do a lot of damage. I just pray that the power does not go out for 3 weeks. That would suck ass.