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I just email this to Emma because I have been really depressd about it and I thought I would feel better afterwards. Jury is still out on that though.
Emma-
I don't know. I guess that I just needed to get this off my chest because it's really been bothering me for the last couple of days. I just... I just feel like you used me and I think that's low. You knew I liked you, and whether it was just in my head or not, you seemed to like me too, even a little bit. I thought that you were being serious that night we were at Ashley's house when you said you liked me. But I guess you were just drunk and are one of those girls who will make out with guys they don't like when they're drunk. I guess that's cool- I don't regret that. It's just that I feel like you knew I liked you and you just used me to get a free dinner. And I think that's crappy. I thought it was more, I thought you thought more of me. I suppose that was all in my imagination though. I know I probably sound like some whiny little bitch, but for some reason I thought that maybe we were on our way to being more than friends. I thought I was making it clear to you that that's what I wanted. But whether you realized it or not really doesn't matter anymore. What's done is done right? I just wish I could have been more intelligent all those times I thought you were sending me signals. But whatever. I am only telling you so that you know why I might seem a little pissed off at times- I just feel like you weren't being very cool when you acted a certain way to get what you wanted from me because you knew I liked you. Whatever.
-B.J.
Emma-
I don't know. I guess that I just needed to get this off my chest because it's really been bothering me for the last couple of days. I just... I just feel like you used me and I think that's low. You knew I liked you, and whether it was just in my head or not, you seemed to like me too, even a little bit. I thought that you were being serious that night we were at Ashley's house when you said you liked me. But I guess you were just drunk and are one of those girls who will make out with guys they don't like when they're drunk. I guess that's cool- I don't regret that. It's just that I feel like you knew I liked you and you just used me to get a free dinner. And I think that's crappy. I thought it was more, I thought you thought more of me. I suppose that was all in my imagination though. I know I probably sound like some whiny little bitch, but for some reason I thought that maybe we were on our way to being more than friends. I thought I was making it clear to you that that's what I wanted. But whether you realized it or not really doesn't matter anymore. What's done is done right? I just wish I could have been more intelligent all those times I thought you were sending me signals. But whatever. I am only telling you so that you know why I might seem a little pissed off at times- I just feel like you weren't being very cool when you acted a certain way to get what you wanted from me because you knew I liked you. Whatever.
-B.J.