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I cannot stand this. I hate living in Howell. I feel so depressed because I feel like the only thing I'm doing right now is living in bewtween events and this, living in Howell, is nothing. It's like I have to do this, I have to pay my dues before I am deserving enough to live in my apartment wiht andee.
We got out official address today. Thats exciting.
727 Green Rd.
Apt. #537
Ypsilanti, MI
48197
We got the 3rd floor! YAY! We move in August 24. School starts Sept 7, so we have tons of time to get comfortable before worrying about school.
So- the date with Emma. Dont really know what to say. I'm delusional? i guess. I liked her a lot and I thought I was getting signals that she liked me too. And she certainly new that I liked her (I told her to her face) and she let me treat her really well, and be sweet and a little romantic and I thought she was enjoying herself. But towards the end of the night, it became clear to me that this was nothing to her. This was a pretty big deal to me. but to her, it was just like every other night hanging out with a friend. So I probably made up all the little signs that she was interested in me. I dont know how else to explain it. Or shes a slut who does this on purpose with a lot of guys as a self-esteem booster or a way to get free stuff. Fuck it. I am fucking over it. Smoking two bowls and talking to Andee stoned at 2 in the morning for two hours got me feeling depressed, but overall better about the situation because now there is perspective on my life I guess.
We got out official address today. Thats exciting.
727 Green Rd.
Apt. #537
Ypsilanti, MI
48197
We got the 3rd floor! YAY! We move in August 24. School starts Sept 7, so we have tons of time to get comfortable before worrying about school.
So- the date with Emma. Dont really know what to say. I'm delusional? i guess. I liked her a lot and I thought I was getting signals that she liked me too. And she certainly new that I liked her (I told her to her face) and she let me treat her really well, and be sweet and a little romantic and I thought she was enjoying herself. But towards the end of the night, it became clear to me that this was nothing to her. This was a pretty big deal to me. but to her, it was just like every other night hanging out with a friend. So I probably made up all the little signs that she was interested in me. I dont know how else to explain it. Or shes a slut who does this on purpose with a lot of guys as a self-esteem booster or a way to get free stuff. Fuck it. I am fucking over it. Smoking two bowls and talking to Andee stoned at 2 in the morning for two hours got me feeling depressed, but overall better about the situation because now there is perspective on my life I guess.