so freakin' tired!
so its been quite the busy couple of weeks... i have been working 40 hours a week with about 80 little kids everyday. man o man. its crazy. i love it, most of the time. it really keeps me busy and my mind of the bullshit that is going on at home.
after work i am soo tired... but i need to see my friends... so i do that some of the time. good times there, as always. lauren is gone for the week and i miss her.
when im not with my friends or at work then i am spending time with my famiy. i realized that i have been neglecting them a lot to try to get away from the "issues" but they need me. its hard because a lot of the time i want to do something else, but i need to be here. now more than ever.
ive found that it is getting harder and harder to keep on a happy face. im sooo blatantly angry now... and that anger then turns in to deep deep sadness. i have just started crying randomly (except at work when i dont have time to think) like the other night... i was getting ready to leave sam's house and right when i got in my car i started crying. what set me off? i dont know. but bam. there were the tears.
this is soo frustrating. i have yelled at my dad a few times now. and he pisses me off all the more each time.
i dont know if i will ever be ok with him again.
after work i am soo tired... but i need to see my friends... so i do that some of the time. good times there, as always. lauren is gone for the week and i miss her.
when im not with my friends or at work then i am spending time with my famiy. i realized that i have been neglecting them a lot to try to get away from the "issues" but they need me. its hard because a lot of the time i want to do something else, but i need to be here. now more than ever.
ive found that it is getting harder and harder to keep on a happy face. im sooo blatantly angry now... and that anger then turns in to deep deep sadness. i have just started crying randomly (except at work when i dont have time to think) like the other night... i was getting ready to leave sam's house and right when i got in my car i started crying. what set me off? i dont know. but bam. there were the tears.
this is soo frustrating. i have yelled at my dad a few times now. and he pisses me off all the more each time.
i dont know if i will ever be ok with him again.