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I just wanna cry, I want things to go back to the way they used to be, and yet there is so much that I wouldn't give up for anything. I don't even understand what happened. Maybe I'm brainless or blind, I don't know, probably both, either way, it doesn't matter, it doesn't seem there is anything I can do, I've tried everything I know short of beging and breaking down and I refuse to do that again, call me proud I guess I just don't want to go there again. It didn't work last time, it won't work this time. I care a ton... but I just don't know what to do.
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