poop
I seem to mess up a lot of stuff...heh...I got to walk home from dannys today and it was like 90 something degrees out and Im wearing all black... I stoped at one point in time to rest and I thought I was gonna pass out just sitting there so i got up and kept goin...its not fun to walk that far...he thinks Im mad at him for calling Michelle... IM NOT MAD AT HIM....not for that at least...not even for wanting to go to kirks...just the fact hes gotta hide all the time when he does something...its kinda bull shit...I mean friends usually dont hide shit from each other I dont hide anything from him so why should he hide shit from me...I dont get pissed...makes me wounder if hes lied to me about something....................I dont know oh well good for him if he did... i dont know but i really do hate myself...oh i left my meds over there :/ oh darn I didnt want to leave nope sure didnt I wanted to stay even if he was gonna leave but nnooppeee i fucked that up just like EVERYTHING else I do or say... I dont know why he wants me to stay around.... stay alive...I dont get it... I seem to be a bothersome on his life and others too...I really dont get it but if he REALLY wants to put up with it then go for it dude I guess I can stay here to ruin yer life some more if ya really want me too heh I gotta go I dont wanna write in this thing any more and Im not sure why I even have it!